There is just way too many things going on right now and I feel so emotional all the time. I am still coming to turns with Sarah being pregnant and being a grandmother and all of the stuff that goes along with that. On top of that James is graduating in less than 10 days and in fact had his Awards Ceremony from the Career & Technology Center tonight. Add that to Daniel’s “graduation” from his preschool program tomorrow and it’s just enough already. I look at my big kids and see their lives changing in so many ways right now and I’m struck with an overwhelming sense of … something. I’m not sure what I’m feeling. James is so grown up and just at the beginning his life. I look at him and my heart swells with love and pride. Sarah, my baby girl is going to be a mommy and I can see her changing in so many ways already. She seems to understand how much her life is about to change and is welcome to the changes, even if they will be hard. I love her more than she can understand, but I think she’s about to find out. And my Daniel. My sweet, sweet Daniel. He brings me so much joy each day and my heart melts every time he wraps his little arms around my neck.
So yeah. I’m emotional right now. When I first became a mom, while I knew that my kids would eventually grow up, it never dawned on me that it would hurt so much.