May 29th, 2009 by

I am in a funk

There is just way too many things going on right now and I feel so emotional all the time. I am still coming to turns with Sarah being pregnant and being a grandmother and all of the stuff that goes along with that. On top of that James is graduating in less than 10 days and in fact had his Awards Ceremony from the Career & Technology Center tonight. Add that to Daniel’s “graduation” from his preschool program tomorrow and it’s just enough already. I look at my big kids and see their lives changing in so many ways right now and I’m struck with an overwhelming sense of … something. I’m not sure what I’m feeling. James is so grown up and just at the beginning his life. I look at him and my heart swells with love and pride. Sarah, my baby girl is going to be a mommy and I can see her changing in so many ways already. She seems to understand how much her life is about to change and is welcome to the changes, even if they will be hard. I love her more than she can understand, but I think she’s about to find out. And my Daniel. My sweet, sweet Daniel. He brings me so much joy each day and my heart melts every time he wraps his little arms around my neck.

So yeah. I’m emotional right now. When I first became a mom, while I knew that my kids would eventually grow up, it never dawned on me that it would hurt so much.

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One Response to “I am in a funk”

  1. avatar Sweet Dakota Sky says:

    I am sorry you are feeling sort of down and confused, sounds like a mixture of every emotion you can have! I couldn’t imagine seeing my kids at that stage in their life. I dread watching my now 3 year old putting on a backpack and walking into class on her first day of school. Maybe its the fact that we just don’t have any control over it, they WILL grow up and there are moments we want to hold on to, that we will never get back. It is all part of life, and now with your daughter being pregnant, you get to enjoy her all over again, threw your grand baby!

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