At the beginning of last week, I tried my Mom’s suggestion of keeping Christian busy during the day in order to prevent him from napping for two days and, by the third day, he should be going to bed at a decent hour and taking regular naps. Seemed too good to be true and that’s because it was. She claimed she had success doing this with my brother 18+ years ago, but it did nothing for us but make for a Hellish few days. Plus, at the time, we were trying to deal with his newly found anxieties. Not fun. By the third day, he was beyond, and I mean beyond, exhausted. I had never seen him with such a negative demeanor. He has always had a smile on his face and to see him looking so empty, cranky and refusing to crack even the slightest hint of a smile was heartbreaking. This was not my son. He may have had the same outer appearance, but it was not Christian. Clearly this “plan” was not working so I put him down for his nap on the third day and we had double success. First, he fussed a little when I put him in his crib but, he put himself to sleep! I was so happy to see that he may have been moving passed his anxiety associated with his crib. Second, he took a nice, LONG nap and woke up smiling. 
It has now been a week since then and he is 100% fine during the day when it comes to nap time. He does his usual little fuss when I put him down, but he puts himself to sleep and takes good naps again. However, night time is a different story. Over the weekend, he was going to bed at 2am and waking for the day around 11am. Definitely not ideal but I have no idea how to make it better. He usually goes to sleep around 8 or so and treats it like a nap and when he wakes up, he has to be out cold before I can put him in his crib again, otherwise he wakes up screaming. I swear the kid is armed with radar that goes off as soon as we reach his door because he lets out a whine and I know it’s not even worth going in and trying to put him down because it won’t end well. I’m hoping things change sooner rather than later. We may be getting multiple hours of sleep in one stretch, but it has been very broken and crappy quality sleep. I know it’s the same for Christian because he’s been waking up a few times in the very early morning but is usually able to put himself back to sleep (thank God!).
With how things have been going lately, I feel like a robot. Same thing day after day and I almost feel trapped. I need a change or some kind of excitement. I’ve thought about getting my hair snipped and perhaps dyed, too, which is very odd for me as I’m not usually into girly stuff like that. lol I think the change would be nice and it may help me to feel a little better about myself. I’ve become quite the “shlumpadinka” since becoming a SAHM (if you’ve seen the shlumpadinka episode on Oprah, you know what I’m talking about, if not, click on the word to find out what it means) and I’m not quite sure how my husband still manages to find me attractive. haha Yes, perhaps a mini-makeover is what I need. Now I need to figure out what to have done… decisions, decisions.
