But whoever said life was fair, right? I’ve been trying for days to write this post and while I have most of it in my head, my heart breaks when I try to type it and I can’t see my monitor through my tears.
I have been very sad this week. Being a member of JustMommies for 5 years, I have seen lots and lots of loss. Members have lost pregnancies, members have lost children, members have lost parents and spouses. You get that many people together in one place and you’re bound to see loss. And it sucks. Hardcore sucks.
This week, though, it really just hit me hard. I don’t know why. I don’t really “know” the women who had devistating losses this week. I mean, I know them, but I’ve never met them. What I do know is that they deserve healthy happy pregnancies that end in healthy happy babies more than anybody I know. I ache for them and their families. And it’s just not fair.
And in the midst of my sorrow for these special mommies, I’m reminded once again of my own daughter’s first trimester loss in late May and I ache for her. And I think of sweet Chrisa and her even sweeter baby Jeremy who was just born too soon and I cry for her. In my heart of hearts I know that God has a plan for all of these wonderful mommies and I know that in His time He will reveal that plan, but it surely doesn’t make it any easier. And right now all I can think is IT’S JUST NOT FAIR!
Tags: miscarriage, pregnancy loss
Rachel I know what you mean. I have done a lot of crying and praying this week for several of my JM friends.
it’s definately not fair - and I think in a group like JM, losses do effect everyone… it’s so sad
That was beautiful. Thank you.
I am quite sure that at every still birth i’v attended, (where I lost all my composure and wept whole heartedly) that I wept even harder the whole drive home…. That heavy cloud lingers… it is a massive weight- and yet I feel thankful for the bond of sisterhood that causes all to experience it so deeply… despite the miles, lifestyles, and gaps between us, this ache is universal. I am grateful for the connection… God Bless our dear sisters with empty arms….