I sit back and watch all of these BFP’s (big fat positives) pop up around me and I can’t help but feel that motherly urge to have another!! I’m in such a hard place right now because 3 is plenty, but I don’t feel done yet. I’ve always heard if you’re unsure, don’t do it (vasectomy and/or tubal). Logan is only 6 months old so I really don’t understand why I have this urge. I’ve been having endometriosis symptoms since after Gavin, but I didn’t know what they were. I just dealt with the pain and when I got pregnant with Logan they suddenly went away. I also read that that does happen to a lot of women. So when I got my first period after having Logan, the pain was back. 
I’m not talking about normal period pain either, I lay on the couch in a ball and try not to breath.. it’s bad.
After some research, I’ve found that the only thing that explains my symptoms is endo, which runs in my family. So if it is in fact endo, I won’t be fertile much longer because it will spread. I’m going to my doctor to get a proper diagnosis and hey, maybe I don’t have it!! But if he tells me I do, I know exactly what I’m gonna feel… the urge to have another baby before I can’t anymore. I talked to my husband about this, who is VERY done, but he’s being really sympathetic. I think he understands how I feel, or is at least trying to. So instead of the quick and definite, “NO!” answer when I mention another baby, he’s asking questions and not really fighting me on it. I’m hoping by the time Logan is 3, our house will be finished in the renovations department and we’ll have a 4 bedroom, completed house. I’m hoping by that time I can talk him into trying to conceive.
I’m still unsure though.. I’m so young so I know I have a long time to decide.. but what if I don’t? What if I go to the doctor and my window of time is slowly running out on me. I think as a woman, I’ll always have the urge to have another baby. I just need to decide if I want 3 or 4. This is NOT an easy thing to decide.
I can really relate with your feelings. This is how Kelly and I started ttc. We had planned to be done but I couldn’t shake the feeling that I wanted one more. Just keep talking to him. And try to wait till you talk to your doctor before you panic. ((HUGS))
My DH and I were just discussing this yesterday. We always said we just wanted two children but now that we have our two we aren’t sure if we are really done. It just seems unbearable to me to never be pregnant again. To never give birth again. To never hold my newborn again and nurse him/her again for the first time. *sigh*
I have Stage IV endo, so I know what it’s like to live in pain and it’s not fun at all. If you do suspect that is the case, I would recommend getting that confirmed and then treating appropriately. And try not to panic, endo doesn’t necessarily mean infertility. It is the case often, but not always. My sister was able to conceive 2 children with no medical assistance and she has endo too.
We are in the same place, we always said we would have just 2 children, but I don’t feel done yet. DH is unsure (although he’s coming around) so for now, we are just waiting to see how we feel over the next year or two. Good luck with your decision, it is a hard one to make!
It is hard. Good Luck on your decision
You are so right that it’s such a hard thing to decide! I constantly question my decision to be done at 2… I’ve always felt that was my magic number, but the way things went with Danny has me waffling - on the one hand, I’m terrified to have another, and on the other hand, I want another shot at it. My DH is late 30’s though and I feel like we’re running out of time, though for a different reason. Good luck Heather!
Go for it. You only live once - fill your life up with joy!