Archive for December, 2010

A Bad Case of Stripes

Thursday, December 30th, 2010 by by

I hate getting dressed.  It’s no secret. I am just not good at it.  Some people effortlessly drift into their closets and assemble outfits that suit both their bodies and the occasion.  I can do neither.

My still post-partum, over 40 body has stumped me.  It can’t seem to decide what it wants to be.  One day I’ll look in the mirror and think, “I can live with this,” and later that same day it’s as if someone has switched my mirror out with one of those circus side-show models that morphs your body into a mass of wideness and awkward angles.

I’ll leave the house thinking that I look pretty good, and later catch myself in a store window and think, “Ugh”.  That’s all.  Just, “Ugh.”

Shopping is a nightmare.  Time and time again I will leave a store confident that I have purchased wisely.  I will be certain that the contents of my bag will look just as good on me at home as they did in the store.  And time and time again I will come home and (more…)



Thursday, December 30th, 2010 by by

“Mom? Do you remember that bad dream I had last night about the monsters who were eating me?”

“I remember.”

“I’m afraid of monsters and I need you to fall me asleep tonight.”

“I will but you know there are no real monsters, right?”

“But there are in my dreams.”

“While you’re dreaming can you tell the monsters that your dreams are an NMZ?”

“What’s that?”

“A No Monster Zone.”

“Maybe I can, but it might be easier if I just take them by their monster hands and throw them off of the world.”

“Yep. That sounds easier.”

About the Kids

Thursday, December 30th, 2010 by by


Favourite Things: music, puzzles, books

Favourite Toys: drum, pots and pans, tambourines

Favourite Foods: cheese sandwich, blueberries, strawberries, eggs

Favourite Music Circle Songs: I’m a Little Teapot, BINGO, Old MacDonald, Shoo Fly

Common Utterances: “No”, “Water”, “Music”, “Where my drum?”

Favourite Things: all vehicles and motorized things (including lawn mowers, leaf blowers and whipper snippers), arts and crafts (including Playdough)

Favourite Toys: ride-on fire truck, car ramp, dress-up clothes

Favourite Food: peanut butter and jam sandwich, pizza, banana, yogurt

Favourite Music Circle Songs: Hurry Hurry Drive the Fire Truck, Key to the Kingdom, Shoo Fly, Itsy Bitsy Spider

Common Utterances: “Oh wow! Look at that!” “That’s Mine.” “I hungry!” “I see tractor!” (when he hears the tractor outside) (more…)

A week’s worth of homeschool lunches…

Thursday, December 30th, 2010 by by

Even homeschool moms have lunch ruts! It’s easy to fall back on staples like peanut butter and jelly, chicken nuggets or mac and cheese. But one of the often unforeseen benefits of homeschooling can be that you can ensure your kids eat nutritious meals and snacks (and that what you pack isn’t being peer-pressured into the trash). My poor mother packed a banana for me probably every day in elementary school, little did she know, we used them as phones for an hour then threw them away. I still have many mac and cheese days around here, and we pack lunches for field trips and outings, but here’s a sample of what we’ll typically have for lunch during a normal at-home homeschool week.

Wild rice with snap peas and oranges



ROHHAD sucks

Wednesday, December 29th, 2010 by by

As with most mothers of a child with Cancer I should be stressed and worried about this and it coming back. If you sit and think of one of the worst things that could happen to your baby it would be that they would be diagnosed with Cancer that randomly selects who it wants to attack. However, then you throw in ROHHAD and I don’t even have time to think about weather or not Haven will have Leukemia before she is in her mid 20′s or if all the chemo she has taken will cause another type of Cancer we have yet to hear about.

Haven has done a couple years of experimental chemo that has completely regressed some symptoms and helped her in so many ways. She is a completely different child now than she was when we first entrusted Hopkins to save her life.

In 2008 (at age 4) we were told – Haven is on the progressive road to stop breathing on her own by age 7.

I have been terrified of this number since then….almost 3 years. As it is Haven is set to turn 7 on January 26th.

In early November I scheduled a meeting with her Pulmonary doctor and told him that I had noticed Haven was snoring a lot and very loud. I also noted to him that her chest was caving in a bit while sleeping like it was hard for her to breathe. Her sleep walking episodes are also from 4am – 7am. Sleep walking should start around 3 hours after falling asleep in general…..not when you are about to wake up. So she was evaluated by two doctors and quite frankly when I request a test they usually don’t argue if I bring some facts.

So Haven was scheduled for sleep study immediately and we did her test on November 26th. During that time we changed phone numbers a few times and my numbers weren’t in the (more…)

And time just moves forward.

Wednesday, December 29th, 2010 by by

As New Year’s approaches, it’s always a little hard for me.  Another year.  Another year without Cora.  Another year further from holding her, touching her, whispering gently to her.  Another year further away.

Sometimes I wish I knew the exact date of my death.  Morbid? Maybe.  I don’t long to die.  I have way too much to live for right now.  People who need me more than Cora does.  Whom I need as much as Cora (and since there are 3 of them, they win).  But if I knew I was going to die, say, August 4, 2065, then I could count down.  “55 years, 7 months and 1 week until I see Cora again.”

It’s not to say I don’t appreciate my time here.  I’m grateful for every day.  But you can be grateful for the time you have while still looking forward to what it will be like.

I have an image in my mind of what it’ll be like.  It’ll probably be a million times more beautiful than anything I can imagine.


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Babykicks 3g Review

Wednesday, December 29th, 2010 by by

Babykicks has released a newer and improved version of their Bumboo Pocket diaper, now called the 3g.  This diaper shares most of the features with the Bumboo (front stuffing pocket, bamboo fleece lining, fleece gussets, multi-colored coordinating snaps) but has an improved sizing and comes in colors as well.  The insert is still hemp, but has been improved to better fit the 3g.  Babykicks has a few fun videos you might enjoy viewing as well: Babykicks Youtube Channel.  You can also view my previous review of the first version of the Bumboo. I am also hosting a giveaway which end on Jan 10.  Go enter!

Ease of Use ✩✩✩ Since the 3g is still a side snapping diaper, and the diaper itself it still more difficult to stuff than most pockets, I gave it a 3 star.  To adjust the size isn’t that hard (unless you are using the newborn setting, this one takes some practice).  Snapping the side snap first is the easiest way to put on this diaper.

Bang for the Buck ✩✩✩✩ The 3g is still 18.50, right at the same price point as many other one size diapers.  Plus you get a thirsty hemp insert that is great for overnights.  The fleece is bamboo, another more luxe feature compared to most OS pockets. (more…)

Worth Every Penny

Wednesday, December 29th, 2010 by by

Bob made his second annual trip to the 99 Cent Store to do his Christmas shopping. The results were spectacular. With careful consideration, he managed to find an item that was somehow perfect for each recipient on his list…

For Jeff: A pair of aviator sunglasses
“Just like the ones he has but with no scratches!”

For Bajan (Jeff’s Mom): An angel figurine holding a small red heart
“She’ll like the wings-lady.”

For Pops (Jeff’s Stepdad): A calculator
“Pops will know how to use this with the numbers.”

For Mee Mee (My Mom): A blue vase with a shell pattern around the top
“Because Mee Mee likes the beach.”

For Aunt Jill (Jeff’s Sister): A compact of assorted lip gloss
“For wearing her make ups.”

For Aunt Jen (Bob’s Godmother): A green vase
“Because Aunt Jen really likes green.”

And for me, his mother…

A pint of Hydrogen Peroxide Solution
“Because it’s so super good.”


Wednesday, December 29th, 2010 by by

Merry Day-After-Christmas, everyone! I need to figure out how Mrs. Claus gets to hang back at the North Pole while Santa does all the running around. Then again, the truth of the matter is that SHE is probably the one that maintains the naughty/nice list, orders and addresses the cards, manages the elf schedule, packs Santa’s bag, gasses up the sled, gets his suit dry cleaned – and on and on and on. Personally, I’d be happy if I could get a 30-day sabbatical from baking, cooking, and cleaning. Yesterday, after all the excitement blew over, I got on the couch and slept like the dead for 4 hours. I managed to stand upright long enough to eat and watch “Despicable Me” with the kids, and then I went back to bed. The holidays caught up with me big time! The good news is, all of the hard work paid off. Our Christmas was lovely. I was proud of the kids, too, There was no crying or whining or regret about gifts not gotten. They were gracious and thankful, as well as excited for one another. It’s hard as they get older to make sure it all evens out. This year we decided to open gifts on Christmas Eve. However, we made the mistake of sharing this information with the kids, so we spent 99% of that day listening to, “Is it time yet? Is it time yet?” over and over again. We told the kids that we’d open presents after dinner, so of course Kellan wanted to complete that meal around 10:30 a.m. After gorging ourselves on crab legs, it was time to let the wild rumpus start! Pretend you’ve never seen this picture before when it shows up as next year’s card ;) (more…)