Archive for June, 2011
I can’t believe I haven’t had the energy to post anything in 6 months. Where do I start?
This has been a very challenging few days – not for me personally, but tragedies affect me differently now that I am a parent, and I feel sick and heartbroken when people I barely know or have never even met are going through tough times. I am truly feeling at a loss this week because of 2 horrendous tragedies that have happened, both dealing with very young children. A 9 month old died from head trauma after a fall from a low height. It’s impossible to imagine what the parents went through immediately after as they try to understand what caused a very common incident with young children to become fatal. In the other, a young child around 3 drowned in a pool on a family vacation. I do not know the details, so I cannot share any more than that, but it is something I cannot stop thinking about.
I cannot stop picturing either accident in my head. I cannot stop feeling sick for these parents and the grief they are feeling. The other thing is that I cannot stop the anger. I have written about this before (see My Faith and Healing), and I honestly still struggle at times. I could feel it all bubbling again today when I woke up. I just started the day angry, short fused, no patience, everything bothered me and quite frankly, I was very grouchy. I just couldn’t stop it. In my heart, I knew that I should be grateful and so thankful for any and all time – good and bad – I get with my children and should enjoy every minute, but I was struggling. And it’s all because this is how I deal with sadness. I cry when I am alone, but when anyone else is around, I get angry – not at them, but because I feel so completely and utterly helpless. I can’t do a thing to help these people. I can’t change the situation. I can’t comfort them with just the right words. I just can’t do anything, and I hate it. I wish I could stop the anger. I wish that I could say that I fully trust God’s plan, and in a way I do, but I just don’t like it. I don’t understand it, and I would love to know why these things happen, but like I said in a previous blog, I *have* to believe that there’s a reason. I have to, because if I don’t, I am totally helpless. At least now I can do one thing, and that is pray for comfort and peace for the families that are devastated with grief right now.
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit
For men are not cast off by the Lord forever. Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love. For he does not willingly bring affliction or grief to the children of men.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
(Okay, so that only half makes sense. Mostly, it just rhymes. And I like rhymes. They’re catchy!)
So, Memorial Day weekend was quite the plethora of celebratory activities. Namely, barbecues. At one of those barbecues, Dustin saw our neighbor’s watermelon plant and began to have lust in his heart. Maybe even his soul! He needed a watermelon plant. That next weekend, he was off to Lowes for a watermelon plant of his own. Indeed, he got one. He also got two varieties of tomatoes, summer squash, and jalapenos. He then went back for a more tomatoes and also came home with a mandarin orange tree. Then, after a week or two, there was concern billowing within him that there just was not enough pollination taking place. After a morning spent observing and attempting to pollinate the plants himself, we were off to Lowes once more for brightly colored flowers that would attract the pollinators. Normal people would call these bees…but not Dustin. This is serious business. They are pollinators. But I digress. While at Lowes, I decided to get in on this planting business and picked up some basil and dill plants. All in all, that’s a lot of plants, and a lot of goodness to enjoy once it’s time to harvest!!! Got to love a man who lands his jet and comes home to tend his garden. Here are a few photos of our burgeoning bounty!
Emily’s blog is up and running again, which means she’s back to embracing the camera. Hopefully she is feeling much, much better these days. Or, at the very least, feeling human again. Sometimes making beautiful babies is hard work, you guys!
There is a tiny little community center in our neighborhood. It was built in the early 1960′s and had been increasingly neglected over the past 10-20 years. Luckily, it seems that recently the neighborhood has had a renewed interest, and the community center has been undergoing some sort of beautification process. The center includes a swimming pool, tennis courts, and a picnic area, and it is located right next to a boat dock and park. Oh, and it overlooks the St. John’s river. It could be quite beautiful, and I’m so glad that the neighborhood is putting for the effort to make it that way.
I recently had an old friend move into a house a couple of streets over. She told me that she and her husband and their baby had been going to the pool every other night. It’s open from 7-8pm for free swim. I’m sure it’s also open during the day, but since we work, the 7-8 time frame is perfect for wearing our little ones out right before bedtime! Haeden has spent a lot of time in the pool the past few weeks, and he really seems to be enjoying the water. He is a little apprehensive at times, but I’m sure that by the end of the season he will be completely comfortable. We’re already working on teaching him how to swim, something I think is very important – especially living in the state of Florida.
The only problem is that Haeden doesn’t want to wear his bathing suit. (more…)
FYI… 2 week break for Texas Summer Giveaway Bash. I will be posting all about summer these two weeks and what us Texans do during the summer, besides having a blast at the beach! lol
This past week, I went to check out Dollar General. Usually I only visit to pick up tape or maybe when they have a sale on soft drinks.
Since they started accepting Manufacturer Coupons, I thought I’d check to see what kind of deals I could get, not to mention their Dollar General Rhythm and Race! You get points for purchasing specific products (labeled in store) and then get to redeem them for awesome prizes!
I also wanted to point out that, in Texas, we are always getting ready for severe weather…. Hurricanes! Dollar General has an awesome “Severe Weather Survival List,” and it’s an awesome list…. I keep it in my coupon binder and have checked off items that I have stocked up for Hurricane Season!
…and for the record, getting on to me never does any good.
I totally never posted my Sunday Scrapbooking. I kept thinking, “Dangit! I only made 2 pages, and I’m actually not crazy about either one, so I’m just not wasting my time.” But, um, I made three pages last week, and I kinda really like 2 of them. lol So… I’m not sure what I was thinking yesterday. I think my brain was too eager for the start of True Blood Season 4 yesterday to make much sense of anything else. As it is now Monday, and we did discuss this some Saturday, I am too much a creature of habit to actually do my Sunday Scrapbooking on Monday. That would just be… wrong. lol But I will post small clickable versions of the layouts, so if you want to see them you can.
Next, I got some pretty awesome news this weekend, but I’m not sure if I can share it yet. It has to do with scrapbooking, and no, I still (more…)
Today, I want to tell you about my weekend. More specifically, Sunday, because Saturday was spent watching movies, sweating my butt off at a zumba class, and driving all over NE Florida looking for a place to eat dinner (we settled for Hooters, go figure). I’m feeling a little lazy today though, so I’m going to go ahead and let the pictures tell the story…
My friend Melissa had a charming idea to make a fairy house with her daughter. They covered a box with some leftover hot pink contact paper and various decorations and put it outside for the night. A real fairy came overnight and left “pixie dust” behind. The excitement was contagious, as her daughter called mine and the two of them talked all about fairies. (Much reference to the movie, “Tinkerbell and the Great Fairy Rescue.”)
We went over to her house that day, hauling along extra crafts and a baby wipes box. The girls had a great time building fairy houses together, then watching the movie with a snack.
With plastic rose petal curtains, felt beds, and pom-pom ball pillows, I’m sure the fairies that have been visiting each night have been hospitably comfortable. Furthermore, the look of pure joy expressed each morning as the girls discover the magical glitter pixie dust left behind is priceless!