So at 31 weeks Baby Bean is on the fast track for development.
Fingers and toes have been here for a while- as evidenced by the thumb sucking we caught at the first ultra sound and the playing with toes at the third one. But now, eyes and ears are developed, Baby Bean is even blinking now. CJ and I are convinced the sense of humor has been in the making for some time and there’s lots of movement going on. All good stuff. I won’t be surprised at all if I give birth to an athlete, a dancer, or yes, even a kick boxer. (see My Olympic Embryo).
I’ve been reading and hearing from folks that now IS the time to really talk and sing to my child. That’s all fine and good. Growing up I was in choir in middle school, high school and even church. I’d like to think I’ve got a decent enough voice, they didn’t kick me out, right?. However, I can’t read music, but I can play the piano by ear a little. I do love music even if I prefer stuff from the 80’s and yes, I love Barry Manilow- which technically makes me a “Blanilow” (a Black Barry Manilow fan). I have reason to believe that’s a rare thing because when I went to his concert a few years ago at Madison Square Garden there were only 4 other Black people there- 3 of them were his back up singers. I’m wish that was just a joke from my act, but it’s actually true.
But I digress. What I’m trying to confess is that every time I start to sing to my Little One- be it a nursery rhyme or a hymn that I remember from church and private school- I start to cry.
I’m not sobbing uncontrollably, but it does affect the quality of the song. I’m not crying sad tears, just super sentimental sweet tears. I am so happy to be carrying this child- something that for years I’ve wanted, but as my past relationships either didn’t mature or turned sour I didn’t think I’d ever have. So it’s a combination of gratitude and love that is the emotion that overwhelms me and I can’t get through “An Irish Lullaby” or “Twinkle Twinkle Little Star”. WTH??!!
Has this ever happened to anyone else? My kid’s going to think I can only sing in staccato.