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The Truth

Thursday, March 1st, 2012 by by Geri

The truth is….

Lately, the more I try to act “as if” in regards to a child and family, the harder it is for me - and pretend used to be my favorite game!

The truth is…

I have three baby name books, and each time we hear news of another possible birth mother coming to our agency, I pull it out and start getting excited again.  I start to dream about the stories I’ll tell my son or daughter about what I did the moment I heard about them.  Then, when a week goes by without a phone call, I fold up the paper with the names and file it out of sight.

The truth is…

As hard as I try to push my situation out of the way to find happiness for others starting families, it’s hard to remember that the world does not revolve around me, my family, and our situation.

The truth is…

I know there are hard things to deal with when parenting, but all I can see are the beautiful moments.

The truth is… (more…)

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Some News!!

Thursday, October 20th, 2011 by by Geri

On Wednesday morning, I got a phone call from my husband at the office. I really hate it when he calls the office phone to tell me something, because in the past it has always been not great news. The last time, I remember him calling me there was to tell me that his grandmother had passed away.

When Sara came to get me and said my husband was on the phone, it was a LONG walk to the front of the building to my office.

I pick up the phone, expecting the worst, and my head is spinning because no one we know is ill…

“Hey, Ger!” he says.

Ok… He’s in a good mood, this can’t be bad. But he called on the office line, and he knows I hate that.

“I just got off of the phone with Katie; she said Claire wanted us to be called and notified.”

It takes me a second to place the names. Katie is the office manager at our adoption agency, and Claire is our social worker.

“We’re in the Outreach Program!”

Ohmygodohmygodohmygod! This is the news we’ve been waiting for. We have moved one step closer.

Our agency has a waiting list to get into the Outreach Program. Once we get into the Outreach Program, birth mothers will be shown our profile. We have been on the waiting list since February and were expecting around the beginning of July that we would get the call. When the call didn’t come, we had to force ourselves to remember that our having to wait longer meant another family was either having issues with a TPR (Termination of Parental Rights) or they had a failed adoption. So, although we were slightly disheartened, we have been trying our best to keep our spirits high.

The other thing we’ve been trying to brainstorm is how in the world we would go about finding our own birth mother without using the outreach program. We’ve told family, we’ve told friends, and we’ve used the blog and Facebook to make people aware that we are looking to adopt. Knowing that our baby will come to us in the right way at the right time, it really doesn’t matter if it is through the program or by word of mouth. We’ll be blessed regardless!

Thank you to all of our family and friends, and even a few strangers who have been praying for us and keeping us in their thoughts. We appreciate all of the support!

Visualizing Baby

Tuesday, October 18th, 2011 by by Geri

I am fortunate enough to work for two amazing chiropractors, Dr. Dawn Cadwallader and Dr. Rob Cadwallader.  They came into my life by way of a friend, Jess.  Jess and I went to high school together.  Jess and I didn’t like each other very much…well, at all… in high school.  There was a boy involved, and it’s really not a very interesting story looking back on it 15 years later.  Jess and I reconnected about 4 years ago.  She knew I was looking for a job and let me know that a new chiropractic office she was working for was hiring for front desk.

I applied, interviewed, and waited…. and waited…. and called…. and called… and waited.

In January 2008, my husband and I were on a trip to San Francisco when I got the call.  They wanted to interview me again.  Two weeks later, I was working for Pro Health Chiropractic.

It is the hardest job I have ever had - the hardest but the most rewarding job I’ve ever had.  I was introduced to concepts that I had never been introduced to before.  Words like “Universe,” ”Enneagram,” “Visualize,” and “Manifest.”  I’m still hesitant to talk to a lot of friends and family about these concepts, because they are not the mainstream and I’ve always been a peacemaker.  I don’t make waves.

I have had personal training and life coaching from both of these doctors that not everyone may understand, but it’s the best thing that could have happened to me.  I’ve come to realize what my role is in this thing we call “Life.”  I create whatever I want out of my life.  It can’t come from someone else.  I am the only one who can concentrate and put all I have into who I BE.

Last weekend, Pro Health gave a seminar for a healthy lifestyle challenge we are doing for our patients.  My boss, life coach, and dearest friend Dr.Dawn gave a talk on Visualization.  Concurrently, we are reading a book as a part of training at the office called, “Manifesting Change: It Couldn’t Be Easier.”  Both the seminar and the book shed more light on visualizing the end result - focusing on your end result and not focusing on all of the steps and the hows of how you are going to get there, but knowing what you want in the end.

I realized while listening to this incredible woman speak that I had failed to carry over the training I had gotten from work into my personal life.  Going through all of the paperwork and books and steps of how to get from point A to point B in the adoption game, I forgot what the real focus should be on: my end result… my baby. (more…)

“Hey! Guess What!?”

Wednesday, October 12th, 2011 by by Geri

As an “about-to-be” adoptive mother, I have worked through the grief.  I have grieved for my unborn child and have peace with the fact that I will never be pregnant. I am truly OK with that. But no one and nothing can prepare you for the sting that inevitably comes every time you hear the words, “Hey!  Guess what?!  I’m pregnant!”

The pregnancies that have been announced as of late in my world have been those that have been planned for and hoped for as well as those that have been unplanned and a surprise blessing.  I am so truly happy for each announcement.  What greater gift than that of a child.

But it still hurts.  There is still a sting there.  And I think it will always be there.  No matter how many children I adopt.  There is still a deep down pain in the depths of my soul.  It stings in my heart, then it reaches down, grabs me deep in my gut and doesn’t let go for a few minutes.  Tears well up, but I don’t allow them to flow until I’m alone.  I’m supposed to be happy for this news!  I am supposed to be OK with my situation.  And while I am, it still hurts.  And it is really hard to get this across to others.

I am reading a book right now called “Journey of Souls“.  It was recommended to my by my boss, and more importantly, one of my best friends.  It’s helping me realize that even if I don’t conceive my child, I don’t choose my child… my child chooses me.

I take comfort in knowing that what is meant to be will happen.  And it will happen at the right time.  Sometimes when that “time” isn’t on “my time”, it will eat at me and frustrate me to no end.  It’s hard to accept that it’s out of my hands.  It’s in the hands of the Universe, God, whomever is in charge of time and space.  And I accept that.  But it’s ok for me to struggle every once in a while.  It keeps it real.  There is a blessing with every pang in my stomach and with each tear that I shed.  It’s helping me realize how ready I am, how much love I have to give and how blessed I will be by the soul that chooses me.

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