Category Grief & Loss

Is this what acceptance really is?

I’ve discussed the stages of grief before, this isn’t really what this post is about. Anyway, I finished reading the book Allegiant by Veronica Roth last night (Spoilers if you haven’t read it already!!) I made a post on Facebook about how it didn’t end the way I expected it to.  How I *expected* it to…
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It’s been a long time.

I feel bad that I didn’t post about her birthday. I haven’t posted much at all anywhere lately. My life feels like it keeps getting away from me. But we had a birthday celebration. Cora’s butterflies arrived and hatched early, so we released them on April 26th instead.
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When things whisper to me….

Shortly after Cora died, I felt like everything I saw around me symbolized her.  We were very very poor, and I could imagine myself up to my ears in pictures in figurines if I bought every one.  So I made a promise to myself, that I would buy things when, and only when, something really…
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Moving

Yep, we’re moving.  Quite unexpectedly.  Matt got an amazing transfer offer, and it’s the kind of thing that would be a great opportunity and we had no real reason to stay where we are. So right now, I’m in the process of getting the house ready to sell.  Part of that is “de-personalizing.”  Apparently it’s…
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Other women’s babies

It’s interesting how a picture can take you right back to the emotion of the moment it was taken in.  I was looking at old pictures a while back, trying to find pictures of me and my youngest sister (long story).  And I came across some pictures of me after Cora was born, but before…
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ROHHAD: Kira – 9 years old – passes away :(

Kira, 9 years old, gains her ROHHAD angel wings Dearest friends….it is with a heavy heart and sadness that I must share that one of our sweetest and dearest friends has lost her battle with ROHHAD and gained her angel wings.  I have known Kira and her family for a few years now and am…
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Happy 7th birthday Cora

Seven years ago today I held a perfect redheaded angel in my arms. For just a few moments the grief slipped away as I was surrounded by and in awe of her. I didn’t get to hold her in my arms for long, but separation will never change that she was, is and forever will…
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I hate this day

April 30th, the last day Cora was alive.  As much as I have come to terms with some things, it’s still hard.  I STILL have the “if only I’d done this,” and “I should have done that,” thoughts that pop into my head, forever haunting me. In the end, no matter what, she’s not here….
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"Hopefully" (pregnancy mentioned)

So, I have become pregnant again.  It wasn’t planned, but I’m excited…most of the time.  When I’m not terrified. I have such a hard time talking about pregnancy with people.  I’ll only be 6 weeks on Monday, but since I get so very sick, I don’t even try to keep it a secret.  And of…
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Caterpillars!!

Cora’s caterpillars arrived.  Hopefully we have warm weather this year so we can release the butterflies and have them be warm enough to fly away.
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