Category Grief & Loss

That woman

This picture was taken April 2, 2006, 7 years ago tomorrow. This was a woman who, though still very much struggling with hyperemesis, was happily expecting a baby.  And not just “expecting” in the pregnancy euphemism sense, but literally expecting a baby.  There had been a lot of loss in my family, but I had made…
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Steps back into life

January 21, 2013 ~ Steps Back into Life Share about your first steps back into life. What helped you survive in the world outside as you took those first tender steps? Are there still tender areas for you today, living in a world that doesn’t embrace or understand the loss of a baby/child? How do…
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Moments

Sometimes it just hits me over the head the little moments I have or will miss.  I was watching Erin, thinking about all the things I’m looking forward to with my living children, and it just hit me that I’m not going to experience those things with Cora. I don’t get to watch her pick…
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What I want to say to her

When he was 19, my husband served a mission for my church for 2 years.  While on his mission he got compared with other young men as a “companionship.” This would change every 6 weeks to a few months, depending.  As you can imagine, he developed some lasting friendships and is still in contact with…
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Walking with you series

I recently discovered this blog series.  It’s over this week, so I’ll be playing catch-up. January 7, 2013 ~ Introduction and Where are You Now? Tell us a little about yourself, your baby, and how you’ve come to this walk. Also, where are you now in your grief and healing? Are you new to this, still…
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Clinging in the pit

January 14, 2013 ~ Clinging in the Pit If you are not new to loss, talk a bit about early grief. What was it like, clinging for hope in the pits of despair? What did you cling to for hope? How did you survive the early days? What helped? What do you wish you could…
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It all comes down to hope.

Over the years, people who have known me and known Cora’s story have in various ways complimented my “strength.” I used to hate it.  Mostly because at first I was hanging on by my fingernails and felt a hair’s breadth away from utterly falling apart.  It was my faith that got me through that.  My…
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It all takes me back to *that* place.

Sandy Hook.  I know I don’t need to explain.  I’ve had a roller coaster of emotions, really.  Unlike most people, I didn’t react with more worry sending Erin to school.  I didn’t hug my children any closer than normal.  Because really, I have already done that every day from the moment they were each born….
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A gift from Calypso’s mommy

I joined JustMommies forums (specifically the pregnancy loss/stillbirth section) 2 months after Cora died.  So it’s been just about 6 1/2 years now.  And in those years I have met hundreds of women who have gone through the same thing as me.  It’s heartbreaking, but at the same time I have made so many wonderful…
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A gift for Cora

Last year I decided that I should pick a girl Cora’s would-be age and get a gift for her in memory of Cora, so I could feel like I was buying a present for her.  Of course, by the time I decided that it was too close to Christmas and the trees weren’t available any…
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