It is so hard to believe that the baby we thought we’d never meet for two whole very difficult weeks has just turned one bright and beautiful year old. I can not forget the miracle of a mothers instinct, the feeling that came over me telling me that my baby was alive and that I was not ready to accept what the ultrasound technician was saying. When I think of those two weeks, the two weeks where we came to grips with the possibility that we were not going to get to have this baby, that God might have had other plans for that little one, I feel a deep sense of gratitude that we did get to keep her because I can not fathom a world without her in it. As we celebrate her first year, I am filled with gratitude for her life, our instinct, and our family doctor who listened to our pleas despite what an ultrasound was saying and I am thankful for the senior technician at the ultrasound lab who finally took her time, diagnosed a badly tilted uterus, worked her magic and found our baby, perfect, heart beating, exactly as old as we knew she was, and so very alive.
A year with Violet has been a year with someone who is just such an (more…)