Tomorrow is “D” Day, and I should be sleeping, but instead I thought I’d blog, get it all out so to speak. When some people ask me about the divorce and I answer honestly, they’re surprised. Surprised that I have already moved on, that I am actually looking forward to the divorce. What most people don’t know, and I haven’t even shared here, is that my soon to be ex-husband was a cheater. Not just once, but many times over. When someone does that to you after promising you forever, then it is unforgivable. I stayed so long for a few reasons, one of the reasons being that I refused to “give up.” “Till death do us part” and all that jazz.
Then, last year, I realized that I would one day die, and I did not want to die thinking that I could have been with someone who was faithful, who did love me more than life itself. Also, I didn’t want my children growing up seeing it. So I made the choice to move on. It wasn’t easy, but life is never easy, is it? Tomorrow we make it final, and I am happy about it. I won’t apologize to anyone for being happy to no longer be married to someone who obviously didn’t love me enough to be faithful. It saddens me that it didn’t work out, but we will be ok. Me, my ex, and the kids. We’ve found a way to be a family apart, and everyone is happy. My ex has moved on and is dating someone, and so am I. We’re both happy. I am not just happy, I’m actually falling in love. Scary, yet beautiful. He was a friend first, and I think that’s why it was so easy. He’s also so good with my kids. They love him already. I can’t blame them.
So even though tomorrow should be a difficult/sad day, it won’t be. It will be the end of one part of my life and the beginning of another. I am excited.