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Little things

It’s amazing the little things that can set off grief. I guess I’ve always known that this was the case – I guess I just forgot. Nevertheless, it always catches me by surprise. The most recent was watching Father of the Bride. The scene where Nina (mom) learns of Annie’s (daughter) engagement. In this scene,…
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To try again, or not to try again?

As I always do after a loss, I’ve been questioning whether or not I want to risk going through another miscarriage. A good friend and I were talking about it last night, and I think I’ve decided. I probably will risk it again. Chris really wants a living (biological) child, and it wouldn’t be very…
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In the hospital

This past Tuesday evening, I began to have a little pain in my side. I immediately thought about calling the on call doctor but decided that I was probably overreacting, so I chose to wait until my already scheduled appointment. On Wednesday at the appointment, we received some bad news. The baby had already passed….
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Reflections…

October and November have been hard months for me for the past 10 years.  November 2nd, 2001, was the date that I said goodbye to my first angel, and then strangely enough two of my three other losses occurred between October 21 and November 19… So in the space of less than a month, I…
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Gwendolyn’s Legacy

Has a nice ring to it, don’t you think? Last night in TCF chat, I asked for suggestions. I wanted something I could do to honor Gwen tomorrow. The response I got was wonderful. A very wonderfully supportive woman named Joanna suggested that I ask people to do a good deed in Gwen’s honor to…
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Gwendolyn Elizabeth

Three years ago today, we lost our baby girl. I’m at a loss for the words to express the grief we feel. You see, when you miscarry, it’s not just about losing that partially formed baby. It’s so much more. It’s about the loss of dreams; the loss of opportunity. We did not get to…
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Daisy

One year ago today, I saw two very beautiful pink lines. I’d thought my period had started the day before, but when the bleeding became watery and started to fade, I was confused. I didn’t expect that this was implantation bleeding. This wasn’t the light brown/pink spotting I’d heard of; this was proper, heavy red…
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My angel babies…

Sometimes I almost forget that I have four angels watching over me.  That makes me feel terrible.  My four angel babies all had such a huge impact on my life, yet as time passes and my life changes, I seem to momentarily forget. No, forget is too strong of a word – I seem to…
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Life after miscarriage

It has been 3 months and 2 weeks since I had my first miscarriage, and one week since my second.  I did not announce my pregnancy this last time, because I thought it would be easier for me to cope if things didn’t go well again.  I was wrong.  Now I just feel like I’m…
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The what ifs…

I sit here watching my children play and I’m grateful for them. But at the same time I think of the What If’s…What if the first baby would’ve made it? What if we would’ve have a girl first? What if that baby would’ve stuck, would we have gone to Texas or just stayed here? What…
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