Posts Tagged ‘ultrasound’

Relief (pregnancy mentioned)

Thursday, April 14th, 2011 by by

I had my ultrasound today.  I always get anxious beforehand.  After the awful ultrasound with Cora, though, I don’t really blame myself.

My main concern, though, was cord placement.  Cora’s was obviously around the neck, and they didn’t tell me, and I really had no clue what I was looking at.

So I was anxious that this one’s would be too.  It would feel like a death sentence, I think.

Thankfully, baby girl’s cord wasn’t around her neck.  It was in front of her belly, between her and her placenta, right where it should be, thank goodness.  She’s also apparently “perfect.”


All sorts of anxiety. (pregnancy mentioned)

Wednesday, January 12th, 2011 by by

The times I had ultrasounds with Cora I was just excited beforehand.  There was no real worry.  There was vague worry about things I’d heard from others about missed miscarriages and things like that.  But not to the point where I was terrified.  I was mostly just hugely excited.  Until that last ultrasound anyway.  I hoped I was freaking out over nothing but deep down I knew she had died so I did not want to walk into that ultrasound room and have a doctor tell me what he told me.  What I knew he was going to tell me.

Now, I have that same feeling of dread before ultrasounds, even when I have no reason to think there’s a problem.  But today it was worse.  I had some bleeding this weekend and of course it just made me scared.  They got me in for an ultrasound this morning, and the dread was nearly what it was like with Cora.  I expected to hear those words again.  “I’m sorry, but there’s no heartbeat.”

There is a heartbeat, though.  Little Skittles is measuring just 1 day behind my dates, which is the closest any of my babies have been.  I teared up with relief, and the tech was so nice.  I keep staring at my picture, so thrilled that there’s really a baby in there.  A living baby.  There’s no clear reason for the bleeding either, everything looks okay.  I am so very very happy.

But I hate that one bad ultrasound has ruined that excitement I used to have.  I wish I could have that back.

The big ultrasound!

Thursday, October 21st, 2010 by by

Yesterday, I had my BIG ultrasound.  The one where they tell you if your baby is a boy or a girl and I think they look for some other stuff too… ;) Just kidding.  I know that the most important thing is that fact that baby is healthy and clearly that’s really what they’re looking for.  Anyway, the ultrasound tech was wonderful.  The last time I saw her she was a little cold and short, but after yesterday’s appointment, I kind of think she was just having an off day.  I really appreciated that she showed and explained everything to me.  I’m a bit of a nerd.  I like to really understand what’s going on and she was wonderful about it.

Deuce’s heart, brain, kidneys, umbilical cord, etc are all perfect.  Baby is measuring perfectly and probably weighs about 12 ounces right now.  It took her a little while to get all the measurements because I seem to make VERY active babies.  We had the same problem with Junior.  Not that I mind!  I loved getting to watch my little peanut flip around the screen for a while.

But, what you really wanted to know… Deuce is a BOY!!  Hubs was right; he seems to be a boy maker.  LOL!  Now, I’m so excited to plan his nursery, get everything together and get Junior used to the idea of having a little brother.  I’m sure they’ll be quite the pair!  *squeal!*  I’m so excited!

Proof of Life

Thursday, August 26th, 2010 by by

If all the pregnancy tests (who only takes one?), the trips to the toilet in the middle of the night, the mild nausea and the bloating weren’t clear enough, we have proof of life.  A blob on the screen with a blinking heartbeat that I fell madly in love with right from the get go.  There really is nothing like that first moment of seeing your unborn child.

Whether they have arms and legs, or a giant yoke sak, it’s the first viewing of this new life growing inside of you and it is so exciting!  Baby’s first photo came home with me yesterday.  I like to start my children off early with getting their photo taken! (more…)


12 week ultrasound

Wednesday, August 25th, 2010 by by

This morning I had my NT scan.  Originally, I was going to turn it down, but I was kind of looking forward to seeing Deuce again for a while.  Shocking, I walked in the door of the doctor’s office 2 minutes late.  I’m NEVER late for work, anything else in life is fair game for tardiness.  It’s actually a habit that drives me nuts, but oh well.  I expected a long detailed U/S, but it was fairly quick (I didn’t have an NT scan with Junior).  Well, except for the fact the Deuce was

It was pretty darn cute to watch and almost got this momma a little choked up.  I shouldn’t be surprised to see that he/she was moving so much.  I’ve been feeling a little bit of movement for the last week or so.  I’ve also had BOY in my head since then.  Now, we just have another two months to wait to find out if Junior is getting a baby brother or baby sister.

I’m still having morning sickness.  Fun.  This morning I was thinking “hmm… I think it’s been a few days since I’ve yakked.  Maybe I’m getting over this mess.”  I yakked 10 minutes later.  Lovely.  It’s officially the second trimester now.  I think it’s time to be done puking, thanks.

All About my 21 Week Scan

Friday, August 6th, 2010 by by

This has been some kind of crazy week. Monday finally brought my 21 week scan, and I was very nervous. I have been scared at every moment of this pregnancy and couldn’t let myself believe for a moment that everything would be OK in case things had not gone well.

It was just my luck that the taxi driver on the way to the hospital chose to take me on the bumpy route. By the time I arrived I was feeling sick and already had a migraine coming on. Waiting in the humid waiting room for twenty minutes with a family who were all arguing about which one was going to get x-rayed didn’t help either. Finally the doors of Ultrasound Room A opened and I was called in.

I had been dreading being called into that room. It was the room where I was given grim news last November. The last thing I wanted to do was to pass through those doors again. I’d been lucky to avoid it throughout this pregnancy so far (more…)

I saw one of the most amazing things today.

Tuesday, May 11th, 2010 by by



A Little Wave

Tuesday, May 11th, 2010 by by

I’ve taken a short hiatus from blogging for the last couple of weeks. After my initial first amazing scan I started getting some spotting and feared the worst. I just went into myself and tried to hide from the world. I was terrified as I went for my follow-up scan last week and I wasn’t expecting the beautiful sight of my little bean beginning to grow arms and legs, and looking for all the world like he (because I am certain it’s a boy!) was waving to me. I went through a lot of tissues that day, but for a happy reason.

I am finally starting to feel like I am going to be holding a baby in my arms by Christmas. It’s taken a long time to start (more…)

Two very emotional days

Monday, April 26th, 2010 by by

The last two weeks have been kind of a blur. In fact, everything since I got my BFP has been a blur. I think I’ve been living in a kind of bubble. I’ve been so scared of things going wrong again that I’ve been shutting myself away from the things and people I would usually be spending my time focusing on. I haven’t even felt able to spend a lot of time on JM where I would normally hang out regularly. I’ve been scared of being around pregnancy and baby talk in case I jinxed things.

My worries came to a head on Thursday. I spent the morning wandering around like a lost little lamb at work. I couldn’t settle anywhere. I ended up sitting in the chapel, by myself, for some time. I used to often spend a few moments gathering my thoughts in there but it’s been a while. Several times I passed by the chaplains’ office in the hope one of them might be in for me to talk to but the room was empty.

The school where I work is a very special place. I can’t really describe it. All kinds of special moments (more…)


Monday, April 26th, 2010 by by

After the longest 2 weeks of my life, filled with a lot of worry, stress, paranoia, many tears, and living in a bubble just trying to get to today:

The most beautiful, tiny, flickering heartbeat I have ever seen in my life.

I have never, ever felt so thankful before.