I have times where I still have a hard time excepting Jay having Autism. Its not a denial thing but more of I never thought my family and my son would be going through this. Am I the only one?

Not anymore but I used to have those days. Gus was Dx'ed 2 ½ years ago though, we have had plenty of time to get used to it, and he has made soooo much progress in that time. I am sometimes fearful for his future, but also hopeful!

I have 2 ASD children and sometimes i wonder why they deserve to be this way? I tend to feel quilty and that its my fault... I accept them and love them for who they are and I am long past acceptance of ASD as its been 5 yrs since we were told ASD the first time. I agree that I do worry more about what things are to come...

Of course my biggest worry is what will be in the future. I never thought this would happen either, its weird. And there are moments when I feel denial and insist that he will be off the spectrum someday since he is making such progress in his therapies. I just wish I had a crystal ball and new what is going to happen. LOL.

I feel this way too...
It's hard.. because on days where he's doing really good.. I find myself saying 'See Mel, he's fine.. yah.. he's fine..' and then it's usually at that very moment where he'll do something that will snap me right back into reality..


You are def. not alone!