09 May 08: I finally decided today that since this is going to my FIRST REAL OFFICIAL month trying that I should start my journal..For those of you who don't know my story...here it is: On 20 Feb 08 I had my Mirena IUD removed...on 21 Feb 08 I started my first AF in over a year and a half...(I had the Mirena almost 2 years)...I bled for about 5 days and then it was over...at this point we weren't really trying but not using any contraceptives either...I wans't even sure if I'd even ovulate the first few cycles or not...well...I counted that cycle as my AF and at 10DPO I started testing...I got BFNs 10DPO-13DPO...at 14DPO I didn't test because I was pretty sure AF was on her way...well she never showed...on the morning of 20 Mar 08 DH convinced me to take a digital just to see what it would say...(my last two pregnancies they didn't have digis for as cheap as they are now so he was quite amused even if it did say NOT Pregnant)...well low and behold...I peed in the cup...dipped it in...and in less than a minute PREGNANT popped up on the screen...we were OVER THE MOON...we couldn't believe that exactly one month after I had my IUD removed we were expecting...I was due on Thanksgiving 27 Nov 08...we told EVERYONE...I even get my pregnancy profile (I'm in the military) and everything...a week later we left to go to GA to my SILs house for a week vacation...we drove on Friday 28 Mar 08...we got in town around 7 PM...and by 10 PM I was starting to spot...at 11 PM it turned bright red and I was at the ER...they did a quant, a vag u/s, and a pelvic exam...my beta was 50
there was nothing on the u/s
and the doc said my cervix was low...open...and small
it was the aboslute worst feeling in the world...I was devestated to have to come back to work a week later and tell everyone that I wasn't pregnant anymore...Now...I am so glad I was on vacation when it happened because it gave me time to cope with my loss before facing so many people...even now...nearly 6 weeks later I have people asking me how I am feeling or when we are going to find out what the baby *is*...after the ER visit in GA I saw my OB back here in MS...he ordered weekly quants every Monday until my hCG was back below 5...on 7 Apr 08 it was 31...the next day...the worst day of my life...I passed our *Lil Turkey* and bled VERY heavily for about 3 hours...that was Tuesday...by Friday I had stopped bleeding...my quant the next Monday was 1...that is when the dreaded wait for AF began...my OB told me that since my levels were never very high that it was probably a chemical pregnancy and my body would be back to normal fairly quickly...I started having EWCM around the 20th of April...so I decided if AF hadn't shown by Friday 9 May I'd test....I started cramping yesterday and I just knew she was coming...but DH wanted me to test anyways as I wasn't bleeding just yet...the FRER was a BFN...that was at 5AM this morning...by 10AM the witch was here...while I am a little sad that she is here...I am also relieved as now I know my body is back to *normal*...I can start REAL charting...and REAL temping...and try REAL OPKs...and hopefully this cycle will bring me a BFP....