Woah! I feel much better now knowing that I'm not alone.
& Yes, Delaney's Mom, I've always been extremely afraid of the dark & confined spaces.
DH has to be extremely cautious in bed even, because if the sheets cover my head, I have an attack
BAD. Both because its dark & I feel like I can't breathe. As far as my OCD goes, it was horrible in school too. When I was in HS, it was horrible, esp. with assignments & homework. Lets say that I was taking notes, and I got through a WHOLE page of notes and I mess up, or wrinkle my paper, or get a mark on it, whatever I'd have to start over.
I still do that every once in a while when doing bills/ and or making a grocery list. It drives DH nuts!
& when it comes to my house. I must clean, everyday. I feel horrible when I have company over like my In-Laws , because I am constantly picking up after them & de-sanitizing everything. They are used to it now because they know I can't help it,
BUT they thought I was a complete FREAK when they first met me!
I can't even do anything outside of my schedule. If I get up and decide to go to Wal-Mart, then come back home, I
must do that. I can't stop at McDonalds, Taco Bell, anywhere!! Just to Wal-Mart & back home.
THE WORSE is if I come across a detour. I freak OUT & pull over and someone has to come get me.
I know, I know.... I don't "live" much. I want to get help so bad, esp. now that I have Olivia. I want to enjoy life & I can't risk having an emergency and not being able to deal with things such as detours, etc.
I just don't want to be put on pills.
A LOT of people in my family are or have been addicted to prescription medicine...