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I have days like that too. I feel like I'm always trying to put up this front that everything is awesome at home, my house is perfect, Brandon's an angel and I'm the best mom ever. It's all not true. We have bad days, especially lately. He's getting more and more attached to me and sometimes just wants to be held all day. I try putting him in his swing or exersaucer just to have some *alone* time...seems like I can only get it in the shower but then the whole time I'm listening to see if I can hear him cry. You can't cook holding a baby or clean a bathroom so I usually have to wait until DH gets home so he can watch him and I can clean or cook...sometimes it feels like a vacation to do chores. I work twice a week so I have guilt about that too. I hate that my mom watches him, I mean, I love that he's not in daycare but I wish I was with him everyday. He's not sleeping through the night everynight and it's taking it's toll on me. All I can think about right now is going home and laying down with him. So, you are not alone. I have a lot of friends that have babies but I can't (or don't want to rather) talk to them about this stuff. I'm so thankful for you girls.
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