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May 6th, 2009, 08:18 AM
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I used to be like Stephanie and Barb.

When I was pregnant with Cora I lived for the future. I was SO miserable, I couldn't help but think "I just have to get through this. I'll be happy when I have Cora in my arms." And then it didn't happen that way.

For the first year after, it was so hard to think about the future. Like Barb, I just thanked God for each day I was pregnant with Erin and hoped that I'd get to hold her while she breathed and take her home. It hurt so much to think about any future at all, because Cora isn't in it.

I guess as time has gone by, It's getting easier to picture the future. Not far. But the other day I was taking a walk with Erin and couldn't help but picture in my mind her first day of Kindergarten.

So I plan for the future. I have a rough sketch of how I would like the next 5/10 years to go. But I am appreciating every day now, and trying to create those small moments that make happy memories. I'm trying to keep pictures of every second in my mind.
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