[sara~b]

Thanks ladies! My mood just keeps swinging back and forth from anger, to hurt, to just sad. Gemma's not even excited about the wedding because it doesn't seem special at all. No one except Shane and I are talking to her about it or anything. In fact, I had to ask Shane if his parents knew we were getting married because they never said congrats or even wished us well/good luck.

I thought we were on good terms with Shane's parents. They watched Gemma 1-2 days a week so I could go to work/class/etc. I worked today and Shane watched her and I'm working tomorrow and Shane is going to watch her again. It just sucks because he gets home from work at 7AM and now he has to stay up until noon with her. After that he will put on a movie for her, feed her lunch and then go to sleep (hopefully). And we are just going to cross our fingers that she will sit tight and not freak out until I get home. Wednesday I have class from 12-3 so she'll only have to sit and watch a movie from like 11:30-1:30 when Shane gets up. His mom being like this just makes it so much harder on all of us. And now Gem has to grow up way too fast because she's a witch and is going to take out her anger on my poor baby.

I swear to God she had better not play favorites or act like Gemma is the odd one out (especially since Shane plans to adopt her) after this baby is born because I will knock her lights out! Gemma has been through enough with her real dad ditching her and then Zack promising to be there forever and ditching both of us. She told Shane she wants him to adopt her and she wants to have the same last name but she refuses to call him dad because daddy's always leave! His mom needs to just butt out before I knock her out! I'm getting more and more upset just thinking about how hurt and confused Gem must be about her 'Nanny' not liking her anymore!

Ugh! I'd better go to bed or I'm never going to sleep! I am ALL worked up! LOL.