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To be honest it's a little scary cos I am afraid that if I really let it all out, what I am feeling, that it will cause so much tension that there would be no chance of wanting to b'd around O time (which can be pressure enough) and the damage will get worse. For the most part he is blind to it. Like, when I had Dakota he let me down alot (wouldn't help out with her, though he'd do all the cooking, cleaning etc instead but wouldn't understand I wanted a break). When I told how close we were to breaking up back then he was totally clueless!
I know that sounds a bad basis for having another baby but things did get better after the first year and at times I have felt like we're getting closer, like before we had Dakota...and I figure he'll know more second time round. Also, I know part of it is me wanting to lash out at anyone for the frustration and saddness this ttc is causing and I don't think it fair to use him as a scapegoat for my feelings.
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Jo xxx
Seperated June 2010 from my husband. One daughter DOB 26/07/2006. BFP 06/01/2011, due september but 'high risk' for premature birth.
Hi. Im Jolene. 31 years old. I suffered three years of a short luteal phase and didnt think I could get pregnant again without medical assistance but fell pregnant by accident and naturally. I am really happy and excited to be having a baby although knowing Im going it alone this time is a bit daunting and scary!
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