I'm leaving for Seattle in 2 1/2 hours...for 4 days...without Reid or DH. My sister is 33 weeks pregnant and I'm going up for her baby shower, to see their new home and to take her maternity pics. I have been looking forward to this for MONTHS, but now that it's actually here I'm freaking out.
I feel so much more connected with Reid since I've been home with him these last 3 weeks. I just enjoy his company so, so much. My heart aches thinking about being away from him (and so FAR away) for 4 days. The longest I have ever been away from him was a day and a half and that time I was only 2 hours away. This time I'm two states away. Also, the last time I was away, I woke up in the middle of the night and nearly had a panic attack. I was on a houseboat with no cell reception and would have had to take a 30 mins boat ride to shore plus 2 hour drive and I didn't even have my own car (rode with friends). It took everything in me to not freak out and to go back to sleep. The next day all I could think about was getting home.
Don't get me wrong, I'm very much looking forward to having a solo trip, being able to sleep in, do my own thing and hang out with adults. I'm just scared that I'm going to have an anxiety attack or something
I'm literally shaking right now and feel like I can't breath right. It's kind of crazy. I feel like a total freak!
I just wanted to share with you guys because I figured that if anyone would understand it would be you guys
I don't want to tell my sis and DH thinks I'm being silly (although I know he would totally miss Reid if he was away for this long too)