okay i am feeling really ridiculous about my NST/BST today.
Okay so I have to go every week and have these done do to GD.
Well, until today i have been fine with everything. I was spontaneuously contracting and they were counting those and saying that baby looked good and I was done.
Well, today, the nurse i had, well she is By. THE. Book. chic. Well, me being slight or a little more than slight OCD.So I get the point about doing things right.
well, you are suppsed to have three contractions in 10minutes. Well to say, i guess the OTHER nurses didnt do that and today I wasnt leaving till I did. So she said i had to do nipple stimulation
and it had to happen in 10min.!
okay I dont know what is wrong with me, but i about freaked,but not on her. I felt terrible! and like everyone was staring at me, and when she left after giving me a sheet for doing that, i started balling! OVER THIS!! ??? okay, this should NOT be a big deal, but I am not likeing having to do this, with all the nurses outside KNOWING I am, I know it isnt "dirty" but man I feel an invasion of privacy maybe??? I cannot tell you why, but I just wanted felt stress butterflies in my belly, and I was all upset and wanted to just leave! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!! I was nice and everything, but when she came back in, I think she could tell I had been crying, well literally BALLING! I can cry quiet no matter how I try! OKay, am I syco?? WHAT am I going to do about the next one next week??!! and it does NOT help that I am pouring milk evertime they ask me to do this! I HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATE IT!!!
