6/26/10: 16 weeks
I had an appointment with my midwife and all is well My next appointment is 7/20, where I'm also having an ultrasound. I'm still undecided about whether or not to find if Bun is a boy or a girl... I want the surprise, but at the same time I kind of want to know. Not so I can pink out pink or blue stuff, but because one thing has been nagging at me: we've had a few "Are you hoping for another boy?" inquiries and it bothers me because its like people think we need another son to "make up for" Bobby being autistic . It doesn't help that we've hit another rough patch with him (he normally has a regression every 3 or 4 months, some more severe than others), and dh's family is prone to appointing a "Golden Boy" , so I'm afraid of exacerbating that. The only thing is, dh absolutely does not want to know ahead of time, so I'd have to keep it a secret from everyone, which will be really tough, lol. I promised dh that I won't even tell him whether or not I know either. I don't know, I've got 4 weeks to decide... part of me just wants to know so I can stop worrying about it.

Here's my 16 week belly pic: