[*Candi*]

I grieve that I didnt properly educate myself on getting through contractions, I totally underestimated how completely they take over your whole body if you dont know what to do.

I also grieve that I didnt get the support I needed from DH. I think I knew all along that he really didnt get how much I needed him, but I also blame myself for not forcing the birthing classes with him. I feel like if I had better support I would have been able to make it twice as long without the epi and made more progress.