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February 22nd, 2011, 06:09 AM
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Okay so I am totally excited that the doctor is pretty sure I am having my third little boy but honestly am I the only one - no this isn't directed at anyone in this forum or even on JM - it is all my IRL people.

When I told my mom - you could hear her catch her breath and then say "you do make beautiful boys" and then the next phone call was "three little boys jenn awwww"

I texted one of my best friends and got back "WHAT!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" like what the hell people!

If someone asks - complete strangers when I am out with Logan & Benjamin - and I say "another little boy" - I get "awww too bad isn't wasn't a girl" OMG **** IT I had a little girl! Before I even knew it was "wouldn't it be nice to have a little girl"

In 2003, I was pregnant by complete surprise with a beautiful little girl - that I lost at 27 weeks and had to say hello & goodbye to in the same instant. She has always been on my mind through every pregnancy etc - my innocence was lost when I had Rebecca and had to say goodbye. But she has taught me so much about love and about life and taking things for granted. Time here can be taken in a quick second without any notice. You learn that the baby you are carrying is a miracle in itself and what's between its legs doesn't make a difference, as long as you have a healthy baby in your arms at the end.

I wanted to find out the sex - it was my decision - Ryan didn't want to know -but I couldn't go my entire pregnancy and not know. Did I want a little girl, YES **** it but I wanted a healthy baby that would be happy!

Argh - I am just hurt by my IRL friends who are saying "too bad isn't not a girl" OMG a baby is a miracle - why oh why do people NOT THINK before they speak!

I love Matthew with all my heart - I love all my boys - they are truly my miracles - each and everyone of them. Do I miss my daughter - omg more then anything - but if you ask my 5 year old about his sister, he tells you that sissy is having a nap on a moon in heaven and if you ask my 2 year old what a butterfly means he will tell you SISSY! That is what I wanted - the boys to know about their big sister and they both do - and so will Matthew.

Sorry to vent but this has been build up and is driving me nuts!
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Chloe (14),
Benjamin (9)
Logan (6), Kaitlin (3)



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