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CD 28, 6 DPO .. Cycle #8
I really wish I could be as strong as the women who don't temp during the 2WW. Seriously. I was sad when my temp dropped on 3DPO, wondering if maybe I didn't O after all and it was a weird 2 day fluke.. then 4 DPO it was low... but then happier on 5 and 6 when it was back up. I know it doesn't really mean anything, but you know what happens to a TTCer!! Make up reasons for EVERYTHING..haha.
Had a good weekend though.. hopefully I'll be able to order everything to get our furnace replaced so that we can finally be warm again at home. Last night was our first good sleep in a long time too.. but poor DH .. I have ZERO libido right now with all the stress at work, the furnace, and my dog classes. I've been trying really hard..but sigh.
Still no symptoms. I was sick yesterday, but I think it was from something I ate (either the leftover omelette from the day before..or the vegetarian chinese food since I have never eaten that before).. so (WAY TMI) I had a nasty case of running to the bathroom every 10 minutes during the last hour of my dog training class (ugh, so embarrassing when there's only 4 students, so it's totally obvious). Then on my way home (the bathrooming started at 4, I left at 5), I was completely nauseaus and was trying not to throw up... but when I made it to my inlaws at 5:45, though I wasn't feeling well and my tummy was feeling "iffy", I still managed to eat some fried chicken, fries, and a corn fritter! Felt better after that though, at least.
Also major hormonal UGGHH at dog training class. We were doing clicker training (so not allowed to say anything, but click when your "dog" (another student) does what you want them to do .. and they do not know what you're trying to make them do). I had to make my "dog" do a moonwalk. I got them to the point where they were walking backwards, but was at a loss as to how to make them drag their feet. So after trying it several times, having the other students help brainstorm ideas.. and in one of these brainstorm sessions I just lost it. I had to walk away in total tears.
Our instructer got the other girls out and came and talked to me since I was obviously bawling my eyes out.. and the entire time i was "I don't know why I'm crying, this is so STUPID", but I couldn't stop. I was frustrated, I felt like I looked stupid..but that's nothing to CRY over. It's a class. With other people. I wanted to curl up in the ground and die...I was so embarrassed, which of course made me cry more. SO LAME.
So one of the other girls took over the clicker and we still couldn't get our "dog" to moonwalk, but I cannot believe what I did. And these are people I'm hoping to get a job with when I finish my class -- now I doubt that will happen.
UGH.. Silly hormones. Being a woman sucks sometimes.
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