I know exactly what you are talking about. I'm so scared to buy anything...which is why she only has like MAYBE 3 or 4 outfits right now and that's because my mom has bought two of them. lol. I WANT so bad to be able to really put my whole self into and be soooo excited about this pregnancy and this little girl, but I'm scared to death! We had an 18 week loss...so this has been a very tough week for both myself and my husband. I've been trying to keep my mind off of it and I've been trying to force myself NOT to drag out the doppler every 10 minutes, but it's been very difficult. I do feel the same way that you do. Having a loss really puts perspective on pregnancy. It makes you KNOW that bad things CAN and do happen and they can most definitely happen to you too....a reality that I was blissfully unaware of before our loss. **sigh**. ((((((hugs)))))) Hang in there and try not to get too worried! I figure that our excitement and ability to purchase things will happen when WE are ready....and if it happens after we see their sweet little faces in our arms then so what. It's not the end of the world to have to shop after the baby is born
My worry is that this entire pregnancy will go by (our last) and that I'll not enjoy a second of it....and that I'll regret that once she's here.
I'm sure you feel the same way. I'm sorry...I wish NONE of us ever had to experience something as devastating as the loss of a pregnancy
(((((hug)))))))