Yeah I'm not keen on a pitocin induction because ive seen the cascade effect happen to two good friends and it was very rough. But it turns out I'm really really not cut out for being late, the last few days I've tried to stay busy and in good spirits but I'm losing the battle.
Not as a pity party but to explain and vent a little, It took us a lot of work to get pregnant and we experienced loss and we had a scare with this pregnancy around 20 weeks so I've been very nervous and now to have him still in there is making me very very anxious, like after all I've been through I still don't have him and something could still go wrong. Im not uncomfortable, I don't have something better to be doing, I dont need my body back, I just need my little man in my arms safe and sound.
So, I know something will only work if he's ready and all that but when Im just sitting here doing nothing, Im waiting and analyzing every little thing, and getting in my own head so I appreciate all the ideas and Ill try anything safe because it means Im at least doing something and theres always the chance that it will be "the thing that works"
