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June 28th, 2013, 07:18 AM
Mega Super Mommy
Join Date: Oct 2012
I woke up this morning with a feeling of disappointment burning through me. I couldn't figure out why. As I got ready for work, it started coming back to me....... the dream I had.
I had a dream last night that we found out we were some how pregnant. 14 weeks and we had no idea. Everything was the same as it is now in life, we were prepping for our wedding in September, I was on BC, and we were in complete shock but utter JOY that somehow this happened. Not when we had wanted it to happen, we wanted to wait until after the wedding, but maybe it was MEANT to happen now?
I wasn't feeling right, and clothes were getting tighter so we went to the doctor and found out I was 14 weeks pregnant. Immediately I was happy I was that far along......thru the worry stage.
I started crying when I realized it was just a dream and thats why I had this overwhelming sense of sadness and disappointment in me when I woke up.
Its been 4 months - almost 5 since our loss and I still struggle with it from time to time. The sense of contentment and happiness I had those short few weeks I knew I was pregnant were amazing. I guess I worry that I wont feel that again when we do get pregnant again, that I'll be so worried something else is going to happen. I want to be able to enjoy it and feel that way again..... I think I had a glimmer of that feeling in my dreams again last night so maybe it will happen.
Anyone else have dreams like that related to TTC and they feel so real?
Brooks Kinlee Barnes
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