Not a natural childbirth
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July 2nd, 2013, 11:31 AM
Join Date: Jul 2010
Don't kick yourself for what you couldn't possibly have known. Hindsight is 20-20. Of course, looking back you "know" something was wrong. I did/do the same thing. Looking back I had every single indication of an abruption. Every.last.one. But I didn't know what I was looking for. Just like you didn't. Feeling "off" or like its normal pregnancy stuff is probably pretty common.
And I imagine it was probably pretty disorienting to be in the hospital, laboring on major meds, and trying to advocate for yourself. Not exactly the prime situation for you to be in tune with your body and what's happening with it.
I am so, so sorry that you are feeling this way. It might take time for you to accept how things happened and feel empowered by the birth that didn't go quite how you wanted it to. It's hard, no matter what the circumstances, to come to peace when things go a bit haywire. But you did awesome!! Beyond awesome! I am so glad you and Isabel are safe.
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