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October 4th, 2013, 06:05 PM
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i also don't have other kids, but let me tell you, this was a surprise. i was only 17 when i conceived. i'm 8 months along now, but sometimes it still feels unreal. i'll wake up in the middle of the night because she has the hiccups and think "oh my god, there is a tiny life in there, hiccuping away" and it'll hit me like a tidal wave all over. i am afraid that i'm not bonding with her the way i should; i'm very maternal and protective (do you know what small town folk say TO teen moms about their babies?) but she's not real to me yet. we have enough baby supplies to rival a babies r us, and yet i still look at them and think, "oh my god".

and yet, i can't imagine my life without her. she's not born yet but i can't picture a day without her in it. she's kicking right now, for example, and i don't know what i did before i felt those little flutters. what did i spend my money on? what did i talk about with my friends? i don't remember. she has consumed my life and i love it.
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