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February 28th, 2008, 03:59 PM
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My name is Diana and I just recently miscarried. I found out that I was Pregnant on Valentines Day. I was excited and scared at the same time. When I tol my boyfriend that I was pregnant he didnt really say much and that scared me. I knew it was ok though because he started helping me in every way that he could and was the sweetest guy ever. I went to the Doctors the next day and found out that I was 7w pregnant. I started bleeding really bad on the 21st of Feburary. I went through a whole bag of super tampons in four hours. It was then that I knew something was wrong and my boyfriend rushed me to the hospital. After an ultra sound and tons of blood work I was told that I had miscarried. I was so devistated.

I needed someone to talk to so I called my best friend.... or who I thought was my best friend. She proceeded to tell me that she was glad that I had miscarried and was hoping that I would. She told me that I can find someone better to have kids with than my boyfriend. It hurt so bad for her to tell me that.

Since I miscarried I have found it so hard to see pregnant women or newborn babies. I know that I only knew that I was pregnant for about a week, but it is the hardest thing that I have been through. I often find myself crying over the smallest things. I have so many thoughts run through my head.

The thought that I think about most is why is it that these people that drink and do drugs all throughout their pregnancy can carry a baby full term but I lost mine. I did everything that I could. I stopped smoking about a week and a half before I found out I was pregnant, I quit drinking, I was eating healthier..... I just dont understand why people who do messed up stuff like that when they are pregnant and still have a baby, that is most likely in horrable addicted state and not take care of themselves. It just does not make sence to me.....

How did ya'll cope with your losses?
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