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So the Peri almost a hour away is also sending me to a high risk clinic here. Anyway, I had that appt. on Friday. Along with the lab not pulling all the blood they needed, them calling my BF from a hospital line, leaving no message and scaring him for almost 2 hours (I lost my phone that morning), they wanted more blood. To bad I only have one good vein for it and they already used it that day. Then got an attitude with me because I could not make it back to them in the 2 hour time they wanted. Gee, sorry, I have 3 little ones in tow and was getting dizzy. Which I told them. I will not drive that way.
Back to my story. The OB at the High Risk Clinic said she wanted me to do another ultrasound early this week to prove the pregnancy is viable. She said something about the 2 ultrasounds and my blood work made her wonder. So tomorrow night at 9pm I go have that done. She said to take the pills until the ultrasound, but hold off on the Heparin until I know it is viable.
I am so nervous. BF has been making me excited. He has that way about him. If it is not viable I know I will feel insanely guilty. Because for 2 weeks I was not happy at all about being pregnant. Not that I wished anything would happen to the baby, but I was not excited and did not want to be pregnant. So I am going to feel like it is all my fault. I did with my miscarriage before my first was born. And I REALLY wanted that baby. My ex and I had been trying 18 months for that baby.
To make matters worse, this hospital ultrasound department does not tell you ANYTHING at your ultrasound. I am not use to that. Even my Peri in GR, the ultrasound tech there tells you what she is doing, measurements, and points out the baby. Not this place. You have to try and see the monitor the tech is using. Meaning if I cannot make things out, I have to wait 4 days to stalk my Dr. for results, which she may just tell me to wait till the 29th to tell me. Since that is when she set an appt to discuss any blood work and ultrasound results.
For the past 2 weeks I have been feeling like it wouldn't be such a bad thing if I m/c. This weekend I came to the realization that if I did m/c though, I would feel horrible about it. So I already feel guilty.
That's great that your BF is excited! It's great the have the support.
I can't imagine having to wait 4 days to find out of things are ok after an u/s!