[TheOnlyPink]

I have less than 30 days to go until my due date. I was lying awake in bed last night and it kinda hit me that i'm going to go into labour and actually have to give birth. I know it prob sounds stupid, of course i have to and its a bit late to be worrying about it now! its just that last time i didnt go into labour on my own, and the thought of it happening scares me. I'm not afraid of the pain or the actual birth, just the start! I suppose its the fact that i dont know when or how it will go is getting to me. and we live quite a bit away from the hospital, so i am worried about when to go in. I would like to stay at home for as long as possible, but i dont know when the right time to go is!

I have an appointment on monday 7th with the midwives and OB and i know alot of things will be explained to me then, but it just feels so real right now.

And i started crying at 4am cos i didnt know how many size one diapers i should have and i only have one pack. I dont remember how many size ones i used with jake, but i know it wasnt many, but i am freaking that i dont have enough. Its not like the stores wont be open and i'll be in hospital for 3 days so plenty of time to get things stocked if we need it. Its all this not knowing!!!

Thanks for reading girls, feel alot better now getting it out there!

[feythful]

Awww, We all have those panic moments in the last month or so. Chances are, you'll be at home when you start labor. Many times contractions start long before water breaking, so it'll be fine. I hate how tv and the movies have misrepresented birth so badly that we women don't even know what it realistically should look or be like. I mean if you watch tv versions of birth the women's water breaks and they're practically squatting down pushing the baby out right there... I know you've been through it before and just like last time, it'll be fine and you'll come home with a gorgeous healthy little one!

As long as you have a place for the baby to sleep, a few diapers and some clothing, you're fine. Everything else will get taken care of as needed. Don't worry mama!

[acupofjoe]

Aww Robyn, im sorry hun. The unknown is very scary for me as well..im sure everything will go over just fine. Its the sitting around waiting part where all you do is think about it that is scary..im sure your body will know when its time. hang in there hun. hugs

[TheOnlyPink]

thanks so much girls! i feel alot better about everything today. my husband tries to comfort me, but tbh i think he is trying really hard not to laugh!

I bought some more size 1 diapers yesterday, and as you and dh mentioned, if i need more there are plenty of stores that sell them!

I think you hit the nail on the head van, its the sitting around and waiting thats making me so crazy. I am really focused on the baby, i can hardly think of anything else, but theres nothing really for me to do but wait so my mind is running away with me!

[Dizzi]

I'm glad you're feeling a bit better about everything Robyn! I've JUST hit my 20w mark and I'm already freaking out!! It's been so long since I've had a baby in the house, and having thought we were done.. goodness. It's just all sorts of emotional craziness going on in my head!

I can't recall my kids being in newborn/size 1 diapers very long either but I had some big babies. I don't think either of them finished a whole pack of newborn diapers even lol

And like Gen said, as long as you have somewhere for your little one to sleep and a few of the necessities, everything will be fine! And yes, of course, the stores will be open and you will be able to get anything you need as you need it!

Big hugs!! How exciting to be in the last month!!!!