One Year (loss mentioned)

Cait&AngelAbove · #1 December 10th, 2011, 08:07 AM

It has been a year since our angel went to Heaven. I mentioned it to DH this morning and he did not want to talk about it. I thought I would be pregnant by now. I know that my circumstances are a little different. With the Lupron and everything this year this is the second month that we have been able to try since my m/c. And I know that with having endo that it can time time to conceive. Regardless of all that I just want my rainbow baby!

K.A.T · #2 December 10th, 2011, 08:39 AM

I'm so sorry it's been so hard for you. May you be blessed with your rainbow baby shortly.

Cait&AngelAbove · #3 December 10th, 2011, 08:41 AM

Thanks Liz!!!

Mod-kerian · #4 December 10th, 2011, 09:58 AM

Caitlin, i am so hoping you get your rainbow baby soon.

(((hugs))), i know this is a hard time for you, and even if DH doesnt wanna talk about, you can chat with us about it. thats why we here.

Cait&AngelAbove · #5 December 10th, 2011, 10:42 AM

Thanks Kerian! I am terrified that endo is going to keep me from having a baby. I know deep down in my heart that that is not true and that I am meant to have children. But it is one of those irrational fears that will not leave my head. Every time that I try to discuss my fears with DH he says that I have the wrong mindset. I really am trying to stay positive and I was doing well and then starting AF right after Thanksgiving and then my angeliversary it just has been a rough couple of weeks. I give myself today to be mopey then back to being full of hope for this cycle!

Mod-kerian · #6 December 11th, 2011, 04:30 AM

it is good you give yourself a day to feel sad. it is needed. and you should be getting ready to 0 soon, am i right?
so holding thumbs for you this cycle.

Cait&AngelAbove · #7 December 11th, 2011, 09:32 AM

Thanks Kerian! Yes I should O this week! One of the ladies from the loss board who just had a little girl and is done having children sent me all her leftover opks so I am using them!