Kerian

Cait&AngelAbove · #1 January 9th, 2012, 07:22 AM

Can you tell us about your journey to have Kyla? I saw that you referenced an iui but I do not think that all of us know your story and I know I would love to "hear" it! If you do not mind sharing!

Mod-kerian · #2 January 9th, 2012, 08:05 AM

i dont mind sharing at all...but i have to warn you it is long, lol.

when we decided to TTC, i basically just stopped my BC pill. i had no knowledge of endo or that i even had it. for the first few months we just DTD, not knowing when i was O'ing or not. i was so unknowledgeable on fertility. but that all changed didnt it?

after a few months i started doing OPK's ( i think i did 2 or 3 cycles with them), and then i decided to go see my Gyn. he thought there was a chance i had PCOS because (as he put it), my ovaries looked like i had gone through a hailstorm. they were so full of cysts. he sent me for bloodwork and also sent DH in for sperm count, morphology, etc.
my tests came back as normal, but DH had 2% morphology. for those who dont know, it meant only 2 % were fully formed. he had a very bad varicocele which was the cause.
my Gynae told me we had no choice but to do fertility treatments. IVF was way to expensive for ue (it is so expensive here), so we chose to go IUI.
My Gynae refuses to do any fertility procedures without a full LAP. so in i went.
we were both shocked to discover i had stage @ endo, both tubes were blocked, which he was able to open the right side. and my left overy was riddled with scar tissue.
i had no idea i had endo, i was told all through the years that pain is normal.

i waited a cycle, then we did my first IUI. we did only clomid and then ovidral (sp?). it was unsuccessful. clomid doesnt really work for me. i made 1 tiny egg.
the very next cycle we did another IUI. this time with clomid and Gonal F. i had some beautiful eggs.

the day i went in for my Beta, i phoned the nurse and asked for my results and she told me it was positive. i was over the moon. the next day i started spotting. i phoned the nurse and she told me she hadnt spoken to me and the results were low and not positive (i think they were 5), i had to go in for another draw. i told her she had told me it was positive. she denied it. i was devastated.

. to this day it still feels like i lost a baby that day. i remember the day i went in for the IUI, there was another woman there with the same surname. and to this day i think they got us mixed up. i lost all trust in my doc's office and never returned except to fetch my results from my lap.

after that i took a break (i think it was about 3 months), and after that i booked an apt with another fertility specialist. the week before my apt my friend made me do a test. AF was 2 weeks late and i had this hugely expensive apt with the new doc booked. i had no symptons and i was tired of the dissapointments.
so i tested and it was a huge BFP! 18 months after we started TTC...and it was beautiful
i cried, phoned DH, cried and immediately went in for a BETA HCG. it was an easy, uncomplicated pregnancy.

Cait&AngelAbove · #3 January 10th, 2012, 08:09 AM

Thank you for sharing! I am so sorry that you had to deal with that awful! Your story gives us all hope though!

Mod-kerian · #4 January 10th, 2012, 09:09 AM

Cait, there is always hope.
a very good client of mine had such severe endo, she ended up having part of her colon removed. had to have her tubes cut. 8 IVF's, 3 MC's. years of meds. and 6 months ago gave birth to twins.

to me she is proof that miracles happen.

rlh27 · #5 January 10th, 2012, 10:09 AM

Thank you so much for sharing your story! It gives me a lot of hope. I know I've only been trying for a little over 6 months, but I get so discouraged so easily. I know it will happen to us, and Kyla is proof that it can happen for anybody. Thank you for the encouragement!