[..Jessica..]

I'm feeling really down right now.

I just can't put it into words, something isn't right. The HPTs are negative, AF is late, I feel like I'm THIS big. I want to be in a place where I'm safe (financially) and be in a place where I'm happy (my weight) and it seems so flipping far away! I just...I don't know!!

Finanically, I'm paying off my debt! Slowly, but surely, it will definitely be gone! I'm very happy I have maintained my goal of continuing to pay my Visa bills. If I didn't set this goal back in January, I can say for sure I wouldn't be where I am today, and those creditors would still be calling me.

My weight, is something I've struggled with for years now. I just want to drop 30lbs before June. Think it's possible? If I drop 3lbs a week, it WILL be possible. But it's darn near IMpossible if I keep eating the fatty foods my mother has for dinner each night. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love her cooking, but come on!! There are other things out there than chicken & roast!

I just want to be in that safe and happy place, so I can be the mother I long to be.

I just want to cry.

[*Bobbie*]

AWWW...... BIG



I will cry right along with you. I seem to be doing a lot of that lately.

I too need to lose some of the weight that has crept up on me. I have such a hard time doing it though. Maybe we can do it together? I know for me I see a big difference when I stop eating sugar and white flour.

I hope you are feeling like yourself again soon. Being depressed sucks! Are you going to chat tonight? That will be good for an hour of laughs...as always. I will bring the carrot sticks

[Eleysia]

I'm sorry you are feeling down in the dumps Jess. I don't know what to tell you. Everything you are upset with is going to take time, but you are moving in the right direction. This is like the 2ww from you know where. I hate the fact that I'm not pregnant atm, or even trying right now, and it is all because i have to wait. Im the least patient person in the world, so I can sympathise with you on that. Tell your mom that you are trying to accomplish the weight loss by june, and that you are not trying to insult her wonderful cooking, but you need to do this for yourself. I hope you feel better, it seems like alot of us are having a crummy day. Must be the planets alingment or something. ((((((((((((big hugs))))))))))))))))

[heatherrose415]

I am soooo sorry jessica

I have a few friends that are on some sort of diet plan and its been working GREAT for them, if you want I can get there info, maybe put them in contact with you, and they can help you out???

You will get to the weight you want!!! maybe cook something for you besides what your mom cooks for dinner? something healthier? Im sure she would understand.

I am sorry your cycles are messed up too!! I think things start looking up for you really soon!

((HUGS))

[jademyst13]

I know the feelings! I need to lose alot of weight and money..what's that? I have no idea what's up with AF though. I hate when she toys with us.

[tparum]

[lynie07]

l know exactly how you are feeling,l too need to lose
about 30lbs and the money side, its really hard for us too as we
have the cost of doing ivf every time we need to try to have a baby
so our Master card never seems to get down l so hate being in debt
with the card it would be so nice if we could all just click our finger
and everthing be as we want it to be

[Danica]

I am sorry Jessica I know what you mean about the weight. I actually dreamt about it the other night but I can't bring myself to drop these 10-15 pounds. UGH. You are doing real good with setting goals for your finances and weight. I really hope you feel back to yourself soon and that the witch either shows or you get a positive.

[..Jessica..]

Thank you for the wonderful replies!!!

My debt is decreasing, and I'm very happy with myself! However, I tried to get a Dell laptop today, and was declined for their installment payments! So, that hurts!!!

Heather -- Would you be willing to get me their diet plan? That would be great!