[jennifer_reif]

So.... I tested again this AM at 14 DPO. It was

I'm not taking it very well today. I'm feeling so very sad right now and the worst part is that I don't think I can talk about it to anyone IRL. DH and everyone else just says "What's the rush?" or "You can always try again next month". I am so very sick of this long, emotional TTC roller coaster. With every month that goes by, I am a little older, DH is a little more stressed at work, and there is a bigger age gap between the kids. It is hard to stay positive when it just seems to get harder to TTC each month.

I know that God has plan for me, but right now I am so very scared that His plan is for me to suffer through this and not end up with a healthy pregnancy. I don't know if I will ever feel baby kicks in my belly or nurse a sleepy newborn. I don't know if DS will ever have a younger sibling.

Sorry for the rambling... I'm kind of a mess and not thinking really straight right. now.

[Danica]

Oh man, that really does suck. I'm sorry.

I know what you mean about wanting the kids close in age and every month going by seems like they will be that much further apart. I really hope you get pregnant soon, you deserve it.

How old is your son?

[jennntj13]

I totally understand what you are saying... ppl don't seem to understand how difficult it is to do test after test after test that show the It really sucks and is so draining... I just told my hubby this yesterday (As it was the time of month to TTC) and he just doesn't seem to get it.

I am praying for you and hope that next month you get your

[jademyst13]

I'm sorry you got a BFN, I know how much it stinks to have to keep waiting.

[babyblue]

So.... I tested again this AM at 14 DPO. It was

I'm not taking it very well today. I'm feeling so very sad right now and the worst part is that I don't think I can talk about it to anyone IRL. DH and everyone else just says "What's the rush?" or "You can always try again next month". I am so very sick of this long, emotional TTC roller coaster. With every month that goes by, I am a little older, DH is a little more stressed at work, and there is a bigger age gap between the kids. It is hard to stay positive when it just seems to get harder to TTC each month.

I know that God has plan for me, but right now I am so very scared that His plan is for me to suffer through this and not end up with a healthy pregnancy. I don't know if I will ever feel baby kicks in my belly or nurse a sleepy newborn. I don't know if DS will ever have a younger sibling.

Sorry for the rambling... I'm kind of a mess and not thinking really straight right. now. [/b]

oh honey, I really do understand! I have been so down in the dumps the past few days too. I am in the exact same boat too. DS turns 3 next month and is always asking if he's going to have a baby "brotha or sista". It breaks my heart. And my DH sounds like yours- just says it will happen on it's own time.. but he doesn't understand what I am going thru. I ache to be pregnant again. I am just so sick of this too.

The only thing that really seems to help me is when AF finally shows. I feel almost relieved, like I can get the show on the road again. Right now I am 13dpo and got a BFN this morning- so I am just begging her to show and end my misery for this month.

Just remember- we're all entitled to have a bad day here and there. And all those thoughts you are having are totally normal.

Sending hugs your way!

[Eleysia]

Im sorry hun. I dont know what to say other than even though you dont think you cant talk to your RL friends about it, we all feel what you are going through, and thats why we are here. I wish you the very best of luck on your next try.

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

I'm sorry! I know how hard it is every month being let down wondering if it will ever happen for you. We all feel it month after endless month. We are all here for you. My dh says the same thing. They don't understand what we feel. I hope you'll get a BFP soon!

[jennifer_reif]

Thank you all so much for the kind words and support. It means a lot to me. Right now it is about 2:00 pm and I am still waiting for AF to arrive today. There is a *teeny* *tiny* part that is still hopeful that things will work out, but I am mostly resigned to another month of trying.

[babyblue]

Me too... I tested this morning- another BFN. I am just waiting her arrival. I've already cried once today. I think it will suck when she shows, but then I'll feel better b/c I know it will be a fresh start again... oh, and I can have some adult drinks in the meantime...

[Pound]

aww, i know how you feel. almost everything you said is something i've thought about recently.
my son is 5.5, and although i actually didn't want any more kids, now that i suddenly do, i regret that they will be so far apart. but i wasn't ready before, and now that i am, i feel so anxious so that i don't get too old, the kids aren't too far apart, etc.
and of course the men are infuriating right?! they probably secretly don't mind if we don't get pg right away cuz that means more sex for them lol.

hope you get your bfp soon.