[*Melissa*]

Hello ladies. I know i don't post much, but I thougt I would give a quick update
While before my pg i struggled with just the simple ( or what SHOULD be simple) task of Ovulating, I am now still ovulating all on my own without any medical intervention!! Praise God! WOO HOO, So even though I'm not pg YET, I'm still thankful for regular cycles.
ALSO, i'm really excited about this cycle because a friend gave me her clear blue easy fertility monitor! She never actually used it and doesn't want any more children so... WOO HOO for me! Those things are like $200.00 and I don't have that kinda money right now, so I'm pretty excited to try it out this cycle.
So now I am onto cycle number 4, post m/c. There are times when it seems like it is getting easier... but other times when i feel like the pain is just as deep and aweful as the first day i found out I lost my little Adriel. Seeing friends that were pg with me get bigger and bigger, and every month i'm NOT pg, i am closer and closer to Adriel's due date, and further away from when I hoped to have a child of my own.
I'm getting so worn down from this trial. I hope the Lord calls an end to it soon, and blesses me with my long awaited child.
Thanks for reading this I love you all!

<>< Melissa

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

I'm sorry af showed, Melissa. Woohoo for the fertility monitor. I hope you get a sticky bean this cycle. I know it's hard. My m/c was 8 months ago. TTCAL is very trying! That's why we are all here for each other. G/L

[Eleysia]

Melissa hey girl im sorry you are having a trying time. I really do hope the fertility monitor helps you girl. KUP, and btw you should start posting more!!!!

[..Jessica..]

Hey Melissa!!

Sorry to hear AF showed her ugly face, yet again! Totally sucks!!!

I hope the fertility monitor does it's job, and you get preggers this cycle!!!

Good luck to you and Brian!!

[~*Sam*~]

to you Melissa! I'm so sorry that you are having to go through all of this. It's such an emotional roller coaster! Just know that we are here for you, I hope that this next cycle is it for you. You truly deserve to see that BFP and keep that baby growing, after all you've been through!

[*Melissa*]

Thank you so much ladies It is so awesome to know that I have support from other women who have been through the same devastation.
I guess I just hoped it would be easier the SECOND time around. It took me 9 cycles to get pg with Adriel. I was hoping for a quicker miracle this time. *sigh* well.... There still time!
Thanks again everyone. love ya all!

[Danica]

Oh man, I am sorry Melissa. I am glad to hear about the fertility monitor and I hope it does the trick this cycle. I said a special prayer for you. HUGS

[Pound]

booo for af. on the upside, you have a monitor! how do those work anyway? maybe that will help you know when you're ovulating.

[ShannonMVT]

I'm sorry AF showed. It's so hard when you know you have been trying so long and you should have a growing baby in your belly right now. And I know you feel about seeing your pg friends move on that feeling of being left behind.

But I hope it happens more quickly for you this time around...that's GREAT news that you are ovulating on your own and that you have a fertility monitor to help you now.