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mom 2 haley & tyler · #1 April 14th, 2008, 01:29 PM

I always wanted 2 children. When dd was born, dh and I decided that we only wanted one. We were both okay with that. Then last year we decided we wanted another one. I was overjoyed that he had changed his mind. So, when we got pg right away with #2, we were so happy. DD wanted a baby brother or sister. Then we lost that baby. Now, 8 months later, here we are still trying. I've already passed the edd for that baby. I ache for another baby. I don't know how else to describe it. I am so blessed with Haley. She is my everything, besides dh. I just feel like part of my family is missing. KWIM? I want to feel another one grow inside me, give birth, love and cherish that baby. I want to give my dd a brother or sister. I never imagined it would be so hard. I don't know what to do anymore. TTCAL is so hard. I'm just having a bad day....thanks to all you lovely ladies for listening. You are the only people I feel like I can tell these things, too.

MountainMomma · #2 April 14th, 2008, 02:55 PM

I know exactly what you mean. I feel that ache each and every day.

..Jessica.. · #3 April 14th, 2008, 02:58 PM

We all know exactly what you're talking about & going through! It totally sucks!!!

I'm sorry you're having a bad day, Michelle!!! I hope you and Scotty get your really soon, you both deserve it!!!

Eleysia · #4 April 14th, 2008, 04:20 PM

Michelle you know Im here for you whenever you need to talk hunny. I hope that this is your month, wed better show a

for you!!! If not, then you can join us in the Jan DDC

we will save a seat for ya!! It is gonna happen soon I just know it.

~*Sam*~ · #5 April 14th, 2008, 06:53 PM

Michelle, I just want to give you lots of ((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))) and tell you that it will happen. I have faith, you are in my Thoughts and Prayers. Take care and know that we feel your pain.

jennntj13 · #6 April 14th, 2008, 07:11 PM

It is much harder than I ever imagined. I never realized what an emotional roller coaster it is and it helps so much to have people to talk to like the ladies on here. If you ever need someone to talk to, I am here...

HippyMomOf4 · #7 April 14th, 2008, 07:31 PM

We all know how you feel girl!

Somedays are better than others and some are worse. I know DH and i always talked about having just the two girls but we decided to have another and i got pregnant first month try and lost that baby i was heartbroken, then we tried again and got pregnant first cycle after the first loss and then i lost that baby and i feel into a depressed funk, that i'm just coming out of. I just try and stay positive. I lost our first baby before i had Isis, and i was due with that baby July 5th, 2004, i got pregnant with Isis and was due July 6th, 2005. It was like my baby came back to me. I'm sure if will happen soon for you just keep your head up, we are all here for you