Let me please start with saying Im very sorry about your losses, but Im glad that you found this board. I think it is great that you finally posted. I can definatly understand lurking, espically when you arent sure what is going to happnen, and while you are still healing from your loss(es). I really do hope that you post more now that we know you are there, so that we can get to know you as well. It makes me happy to know that you found support and helpful information on here. I think it is very reassuring to know that others have gone through similar experiences, and please know that if you need anything, every one of these women have amazing personalities and are more than willing to help out with whatever they can. Welcome to the family hun.