[azura24]

A sweet lady referred me to this board. I met her in I believe the ttc board (Kate T).

Well heres my story....a lil graphic
Im 24-Amber- The fiance is 38-david-and I have a wonderful little 5 year old angel named Mia (just turned 5 the 10th of April). She is my baby from a previous engagement.

Me and the fiance have been actively ttc since the beginning of this year. So when I say I was sooo ecstatic to wake up with sore boobs and morning sickness a few weeks ago, it was wonderful. As wonderful as it could be. lol
Well I wanted to test on May 8th. I figured I will be jinxing myself if I tested any sooner. lol. So this past Tuesday came and me and the fiance was watching a movie when I felt a sharp pain in my lw abd area along with cramping dull cramps all over my abdominal area and I figured well its just pg cramps. Then I started to feel "wet" down there when I ran to the bathroom and clots just started to "flow" out of me. I freaked out! I never had a clot and this was sooo new along with being scared of what was REALLY going on. My fiance told me to relax and he went to the pharmacy and bought 2 ept tests. When he came in and told me to take them, I was so confused but did it after he told me that it would tell me if I was actually preggo. Sure enough they both came out positive. So I went elevated my feet and drank some water. Thursday I tested and got 2 BFN's. I was sooo sad, I didnt come online, I didnt even want to tell the fiance. Well when I logged on I had a PM from Kate T and she referred me to this board.

Im very sad but I feel like maybe GOD had something for me this month or maybe he gave my angel to another deserving couple. Whatever the case, I am keeping good thoughts and praying that this month I can get back to ttc again. I told the fiance that if I dont get preggo, I will wait till around august or so for the next round.
The only thing that is bothering me, which I know its jealousy, me and my friend were preggo together and she told me we can share the baby lolll...but now another not-so-much a friend is pregnant, she lied and told everyone she had a miscarriage diagnosed by the ER i work at and I caught her in the lie. Come to find out shes 16 weeks pregnant just didnt plan on having the baby she was going to add this one to the collection of abortions she had last year and it just kills me that SHE is having a baby! Im jealous yes, but I feel I have reason. I am not judgemental on anyones choices (please no offense to anyone) just she uses it as a birth control method LITERALLY and I just am angry and jealous. Sorry I had to get that out.

Anyways, hope to get to know you ladies better...thanx for the ears

Amber

[jademyst13]

I am so sorry for your loss

I hope that you stick around and we get to know each other

[jennntj13]

I am sorry for your loss and I look forward to getting to know you...

Big Hugs!

[Danica]

Hi Amber & Welcome. I am so sorry to hear you lost your little one. It is such a painful thing to deal with. I am sorry that one lady you know is so carelss with the gift of life to use abortion as a birth control method. I just don't understand why she tells people she is pregnant if she plans to have an abortion. Almost like she wants the attention and people to feel sorry for her so she lies about m/c...? confusing but sad none the less. Anyway, I do look forward to getting to know you better. big HUGS

[Mommy2Makenna]

I'm so sorry for your loss! We are glad you found us, though. May you find your sticky bean soon!

[tparum]

hi and welcome to the board. im so very sry for ur loss

[Melanie0507]

Hi Amber and

I am glad that Kate T turned you on to this board. I am so sorry for your loss, but this is a great group of wonderful, supportive women.

I hope you get your sticky bean soon and I look forward to getting to know you!

[*Bobbie*]

Amber.....

I am so sorry you lost your sweet baby. Kudos to your man for getting those tests, so you know for sure you were PG. The wondering sometimes is worse than knowing.

Lots of



Please allow yourself time to mourn for your baby. We are here for you no matter what you need.