[keekopeeko]

Well girls, Ive stuck around becuz this board was SO amazing for me when i had my miscarriage in october.. I know i dont really post much here.. but i try to keep up with a lot of you, and i do post responces now and then.. I check out this board daily. ... but ive got to say it breaks my heart just how many of you there are that have recently joined... i hate seeing that "im new" post.. just because i know the pain you are feeling.

Its coming up on my original due date. May 11th.. (yes mothers day) and its got me hurting again.. Im looking VERY much forward to that date passing.. I have two friends that were due a few days before me..one had her baby a few days ago, and the other is being induced on monday... I didnt realize that would hurt as much as it does. That to say, the pain is real.. and you are gonna feel it for a long time.. But that its okay. Its normal. and its even normal to feel okay for a long time and then have it hit you all over again.. And that you can make it through and be a stronger person for it.

I am 15 weeks pregnant today. And it took me 3 months after my miscarriage to conceive again.. but i DID! and i was SURE i was gonna lose the baby at least 3-4 times... But i HAVENT! So i wanna say to those of you that are new here... Hurt and heal and grow from your loss... and know that you WILL hold a little baby of yours in your arms! I LOVE this little baby SO much... I thought i might resent it in a way becuz i was supposed to be 38 weeks pregnant now instead.. but i dont.. I go out to our Baby Es grave and talk about how its going to have a little brother or sister, and that makes me happy.. to be able to give my angel baby a little sibling.

So let yourself feel and let yourself hope for your future.

~Em

[cam & sami's mom]

I can't believe you are 15 weeks already! I'm sure it is just me, but time seems to be flying by.

[victorialv]

I think your story is very encouraging sweetie. It always helped me to see the people who were struggling go on to have happy, healthy pregnancies to know that it does and will happen for me too!

[MarykatSC]

Time does seem to heal many wounds. I remember after my first two losses I couldn't stand to hear anyone talk about babies or being pregnant, I would burst into tears. I guess I know now that I should be happy for those that don't have the difficulties that I do. My best friend is pregnant now and due a week before I was supposed to be. I know she feels weird around me, but I am happy for her. She has also had 2 miscarriages, so she deserves to be excited about making it further than before.

[ChattyAshley]

I am so happy for you Em! I can't believe you're 15 weeks!! You Go Girl!! WOOT WOOT!!

[jademyst13]

I too can't believe you are already 15 weeks!

[Pound]

congrats on your sticky bean! and thanks for posting. some days now (it's been a month) i feel totally fine, and then some days i am depressed all over again. and it does seem there are new members here every other day at least =(

[Lv2Mommy]

Very well said, Em - congrats on beign 15 weeks already!

[Eleysia]

Horray for healthy beans after a loss thank you Em