I'm really sorry that I'm posting this but I need you girls so much right now. I'm in the week when I found out that Samantha had died and I started bleeding. I have been checking the tp like crazy the last few days just worrying like crazy that I'm going to start bleeding. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that Samantha would have been 2 this coming May 12th

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and I'm trying really hard not to think of the worst but its so hard. I know worrying isnt good but how can you not when you've been through a m/c. I wish with all my heart that a woman never had to go through a loss. Everyone keeps telling me that god wouldnt have sent me what he did if it wasnt ment to be but all I say to that is why would he send any woman a baby just to take it away????? Can you girls please say a prayer for me tomorrow that all my worrying was for nothing? Thank you girls so much

Ok I have to stop writing now because I'm about ready to

just thinking about the events of this "week".