[babyblue]

Well, DH left for Columbus on business this morning. I told him yesterday I am pretty sure that AF is coming next weekend. I just have had no symptoms and am 9dpo today... plus starting cramping today which is typical for me to cramp 4 or 5 days before she arrives. I am just so down.. this is the second month I've taken clomid and I really hoped I would end up pregnant by now. I'm just really down today. I hate the 2ww.. especially when you get to the part where you know you aren't pregnant, but have to wait for AF to get here so you can start over. It's just so darn heartbreaking! Anyway, I was talking to Kenny on the phone a little while ago and he asked what was wrong and I told him I was just upset and disappointed. He asked what was wrong again, and I said I just told you.. he said, No, why aren't we getting pregnant? I told him I didn't know. The first two pregnancies for me happened immediately- pretty much as soon as we contemplated it I was preggo. But what really meant so much to me was what he said next. He said, "do you think it's me? do you want me to go get tested? Just tell me what I need to do"..

the fact that he'd even OFFER, spoke volumes to me. Before he was so uncommittal about having another one, but lately he's acted like he really WANTS to have another baby.. or even more than one. He told Mason a few nights ago that "momma might have a baby in her belly".. He is excited and wants me to be pregnant. And I know he's tired of me being upset every month. It's such a whirlwind for all of us here. I am at that point in the month that is always the very hardest for me. I just want to lock myself in my room until AF shows. I just hate this week and next will be better. But I thought it was so awesome that my DH is open to doing whatever it takes to have another. It just shows his love for me and for our family- which is by far the best thing to come out of this crappy day!!

[*Bobbie*]

AWWW!!! How sweet!

I hope this month brings you a BIG HUGE FAT positive!




When are you testing???

[babyblue]

I have tested the past 2 days. Not even an evap to tease me. I don't know if I remember what a second pink line looks like..

[..Jessica..]

OMG Amber!!! I'm soooo happy that Kenny made such an amazing offer!!

I actually have tears in my eyes, talk about emotional?

I'm glad you two are 100% on the same page right now (not that you weren't before) he DEFINITELY wants another baby!! What he said to Mason is so darn cute!!!! I can't wait until you get Mason one of those "I'm The Big Brother" t-shirts!!!

Sending lots of your way, girl!!!

[jademyst13]

That was so sweet of him! I hope that you will get your BFP this month though

[babyblue]

OMG Amber!!! I'm soooo happy that Kenny made such an amazing offer!!

I actually have tears in my eyes, talk about emotional?

I'm glad you two are 100% on the same page right now (not that you weren't before) he DEFINITELY wants another baby!! What he said to Mason is so darn cute!!!! I can't wait until you get Mason one of those "I'm The Big Brother" t-shirts!!!

Sending lots of your way, girl!!! [/b]

Thanks Jess! I am happy too and I do know when it happens, it will be perfect in every way! I think I've learned a hard lesson the past 6 months. I was so hell bent on having a girl the second time around, b/c having a girl would mean my child wouldn't have severe hemophilia A, which is what Mason has and what I carry. But now, I don't care if it's girl, boy, alien, martian.. I just want another child to raise and to love!

[jennntj13]

That is very sweet... I really hope that you get a BFP before you need to have testing done!

[Frozendesire]

It makes things a little easier when you know it's the two of you dealing with the emotional roller coaster and not just you hey?

I really hope this is your month! I never get any symptoms until atleast 5 - 6 weeks along and most of them are just the same as AF anyways

[Frangipani]

aww that was so sweet! it is like he knew the perfect thing to say

[LindsLuvsSi]

AWwww that's so sweet of him!! yay!!! (And I know exactly how you are feeling!! I've been cramping the past 2 days, my usual pre-af crmaping. I thought this cycle would be it since I was on a higher dose of Femara. I'm on CD24. my cycles range from 23-26 days.) Good luck Amber!!! Hope you get a surprise BFP!!! and that AF stays away!

[steph&dam]

Amber That is one awesome man you have. I hope that you get pregnant soon. I didn't even BD around O time. I am so off. This week, my pre AF headaches are starting. I know being positive is not what you want to hear, so I will say, take care of and be kind to yourself.

[madmum_sarah]

bless him. what a lovely thing to offer (you know what i mean!)
it really does mean a lot when a man shows how much you and a baby mean to him.
xx

[Melanie0507]

Awww Amber, that is too sweet. I think if it ever got to that point with us, dh would do it, but it would definitely take some convincing!! How awesome that Kenny just volunteered that way!

But...I am really hoping you get a surprise BFP this month and this worrying will all be for nothing

[babyblue]

You ladies are absolutely the best! I teared up reading all your posts. Thanks so much for the encouragement. I know I have so much to be thankful for, even if I can never have another child- a wonderful husband, son and friends like you!!

[Eleysia]

Amber thats so sweet of him to say that!!! Im glad that he is totally there for you, and im sure that soon youll get your bfp. it seems like when we finally hit rock bottom is when we find out we r prego. I hope that it is just way too early for your positive!!

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

Amber, that was so sweet of Kenny! They don't realize that things like that are what mean the most to us. I hope you won't need the testing and you'll get a lovely BFP in a few days. I'm pulling for you. Take care and if you need anything, I'm here for you!