AF is back....

*Melissa* · #1 May 9th, 2008, 03:06 PM

I was really hoping that I would be suprised this cycle with a bfp... However, i knew it wasn't "it" I had absolutly no symptoms whatsoever. With Adriel, it was like text book pg symptoms...
I'm getting so frustrated! Why is it that I am having perfect cycles, I'm ovulating regularly, timing my intercourse and i'm STILL NOT GETTING PG???!!!
I was praying that it would happen before my due date (june 15) and this cycle will now be my last chance...
Tomarow I am going for a 1 hour full body massage, and I think I'm going to try another one like halfway through my cycle, right before ovulation... maybe that will help me relax a bit more and just hope for the best.
So... here's hoping!!!!

jademyst13 · #2 May 9th, 2008, 03:41 PM

I'm sorry hun!

Have you spoken to the Dr about your trouble TTC again? Have y'all considered the injections you were considering before Adriel?

*Melissa* · #3 May 9th, 2008, 04:38 PM

No, i haven't thought about that because before Adriel my period was completly unpredictable on it's own. I would have a 43 day cycle, then a 33 day cycle, then a 40 day cycle. They were completly all over the place. I was on clomid for like 5 months, and only ovulated 3 out of 5 of those cycles, then I used a different ovulation therapy for 2 cycles... eventually I had to take a break from the meds for a laparoscopy to make sure nothing else was wrong... everything came back perfect. I stayed off the clomid and other ovulation drugs to just see how my body was doing on it's own- hoping for the best. I actually ended up getting pg then. If I hadn't I was going to try to injections.
WELL, now after the m/c I haven't even thought about it because my cycles have been regular 31 day cycles. I even had a progesterone test done on day 21 to make sure i was ovulating good eggs, it came back as 15, which is really good for a natural cycle.
SO, there would really be no point in the medication if my body is already doing it on its own...
WOW, sorry for the lengthy responce!! LOL
Thanks for your responce though

I don't feel like I'm just sending this out into space somewhere

jademyst13 · #4 May 9th, 2008, 04:44 PM

Don't worry about the lengthy response! It seems like your body has regulated and is doing what it should with the exception of getting pg! I hope that changes real soon for you!

*Melissa* · #5 May 9th, 2008, 04:48 PM

Thank you so much

It's not even really the impatience part that is the hardest anymore. I know that with regular cycles it is "bound to happen" one of these times. and I really do believe that God will provide... The hard part for me is just the lonley ache WHILE I am waiting, the times that I see other beautiful blessed women, and I'm just aching to start my own family... It's a very difficult process. I just cannot wait to finally hold my own little one in my arms.
Thanks again for your responces.

babyblue · #6 May 9th, 2008, 05:14 PM

oh Melissa, I am so sorry!

I can sympathize so much. Before my miscarriage, everything was soo good for me. Both my pregnancies happened immediately. Now here I am almost 6 months later.. and I don't get it! We too have timed everything just right, and it's just not working for us.

I too am hopeful we get our BFPs this month, b/c that due date is looming and I can't hardly stand to think about it. My due date was the day after yours by the way- on my parents anniversary.

Thinking of you!!

*Melissa* · #7 May 9th, 2008, 06:31 PM

Thanks hun

It's almost added pressure knowing our due dates are just around the corner!!! That is really awesome though that your pregnancies were achieved so quickley the first time though. It took me a total of 9 months of active "trying" to get my miracle, only to loose him... blech...
I was so hoping that after the m/c I would concieve quickley!!! It would be such an amazing miracle/blessing for us to concieve our children this month before our due dates!!
Lets just be REALLY positive this month, and try to relax as much as we can!!! I have a GOOD FEELING about this!!! We can be cycle buddies again haha. What day are you on?? I'm obviously on cd 1

*Bobbie* · #8 May 9th, 2008, 06:38 PM

I feel your pain.

It took me 7 cycles (if I remember right) after my first loss to see a BFP again. We too did everything right, and it was so frustrating. Now my problems seems to be miscarring all the time.

Why can't life ever be easy? LOL

I hope the next cycle is the lucky one for you. LOTS of

coming your way!

*Melissa* · #9 May 9th, 2008, 06:55 PM

Thanks Bobbie

It's nice to know I'm not the only one battling this giant! I really hope the IUI and injactables bring you your long awaited baby!!!

*Bobbie* · #10 May 9th, 2008, 07:04 PM

Thanks

Right now they are just draining my bank account

*Melissa* · #11 May 9th, 2008, 09:21 PM

lol, ouch!! It will be worth it though!!!

Melanie0507 · #12 May 10th, 2008, 09:25 PM

Melissa

I totally understand your frustration

I am right there with you and Amber...my EDD is coming up on June 23. This is my last month to conceive before that date rolls around.

The light at the end of the tunnel for me is that I went ahead and scheduled an appt with my doctor on June 18 to go in and talk to him about TTC. That way, even if AF shows again this cycle, I will know that I am on my way to doing *something* to get a sticky bean...

I hope this month is it for all of us and lots of the other TTCAL girls...FebDDC would be ROCKIN'

*Melissa* · #13 May 11th, 2008, 04:01 PM

That would be very awesome!! It always does feel good to have a plan!! I hope that you don't even get a CHANCE to go to the doctor and talk about ttc!!! I have been wondering if I should consider going back to the dr. but I really feel like God is wanting me to trust him right now. Dh and I have a set time if we haven't conceived by that we will talk to a dr again... but as for now, I'm trying to put all my faith and God and rest in his timing.
Goodluck hun. I hope to see you in the february ddc SOON!!!!!

lynie07 · #14 May 11th, 2008, 05:05 PM

aww Milissa l'm so sorry

l so understand how you are feeling as my EDD is 6th june and praying that
this ivf cycle that l get a BFP as its our last go.
l am praying that you will be holding your own baby really soon,try and stay
positive and l know its easier said than done

mom 2 haley & tyler · #15 May 12th, 2008, 08:15 AM

I'm sorry Melissa

I hope that you have a sticky bean very soon! You are in my t&p.

..Jessica.. · #16 May 12th, 2008, 08:34 AM

I'm sorry Melissa!!!

Good luck this cycle, hun!!!

babyblue · #17 May 12th, 2008, 09:14 AM

Melissa, My cd1 was 3 May.

I am with you on this month to relax and take it easy. I am leaving for vacation 3 weeks from today and I am trying to focus on that and building our new house. I am determined not to stress about it this month and let it get the best of me! Easier said than done I know but so far this cycle has flown by and I am already on CD10.

Good luck and KUP on your progress!

*Melissa* · #18 May 12th, 2008, 03:06 PM

Thanks to everyone for their thoughts and prayers. You are all in mine as well. And I mean that.

Quote:

Melissa, My cd1 was 3 May.

I am with you on this month to relax and take it easy. I am leaving for vacation 3 weeks from today and I am trying to focus on that and building our new house. I am determined not to stress about it this month and let it get the best of me! Easier said than done I know but so far this cycle has flown by and I am already on CD10.

Good luck and KUP on your progress![/b]

So... we only like 6 days apart!! Im on cd 4 today. AF is already slowed way down. I usually just have two days of like HEAVY bleeding, then it tapers off quickley after that.
I had a massage 2 days ago, then I'm going for another one on cd 16 (2-3 days before O) To help my body/mind to relax.... and also cuz it's fun hahaha.
I hope you have an amazing Vaca, it should be a nice distraction for your 2ww!!!