[madmum_sarah]

well most of you know mark has been a very down recently. well the last few days have been great and we have been getting on so much better. well i have decided to send him away on the ferry to his family and to see one of his sons (his baby boy will be 2 in june). he was going down for his birthday because he cant afford to go as often as he would like so im paying for him to go this week as well.
im Oing while hes away and although i am not trying just now i know its going to hit me when i do he leaves tonight until midnight on thursday so il probably not see him til friday and this is the longest we will have been away from each other since we met! me and the kids will miss him so much but i know it will be good for him and mark jr.
then on friday.... my boys dad is coming for the weekend to spend some time with them. they enjoy it because he spoils them but i hate it cos i have nothing but trouble because of it!

im going to do a lot of housework this week to keep busy and may visit some friends i dont see much cos mark doesnt get on with them but i know its going to be a hard!
xxx

[Eleysia]

Sarah big Ill be here for ya for sure hunny!!!

What an awsome thing youre doing for him. You are such an awsome woman! Im sure he couldnt be more excited to go see his son. Thats so cool of you.

Sorry that your boy's dad kinda throws things outta wack for you, hope it doesnt get too chaotic hun.

[madmum_sarah]

thanks hun.
he is excited but also annoyed cos ive arranged for him to stay with his mum and he can only take so much of her to be honest i just dont want him alone down there as it will make his depression worse!
normally we end up having a row while hes there (i get jealous of him being with his ex) but this time im determined he will see im not really like that and i just want him to be happy
its going to be a longggggggggggggggggg week but it will be worth it to see my darling smile again
xx

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

That is so sweet of you Sarah! I hope the week will fly by for you. Of course, we will be here for you. We love you, girl.

[madmum_sarah]

awww thank you girls. amazing how soon i felt a part of this board!
i love you girls loads! just wish we could all get sticky bfps so we could graduate together and stay together for better reasons

[Brittanie]

Oh, honey, you'll make it!! It'll be okay I promise, and we'll be here to keep you occupied!

I know how you feel though. It's been 5 weeks since I've seen my husband, and I've got 2 more to go! >_< But if you've got stuff to do it's really not all that bad. It's when you start dwelling on it that it gets hard.

[Pitridge]

It's a really nice thing that you are doing for him. Hopeyou can keep busy so that the days go by faster. We're here for you.

[madmum_sarah]

well im going to be offline for the rest of the night its 5.30pm here and mark leaves in 4 hours we are goingt o put sadie to bed soon and cuddle up with the boys and watch a film. they are taking it pretty hard (no wonder really as their dad pleases himself when he sees them!) so we are concetrating on them.
ive decided while mark is away im going to do some decorating at his place as well. i have a spare key and its something he "started" months ago but the depression has stopped him. maybe seeing some done will encourage him to do the rest when he returns!
thank you for always being here for me girls. i really think i would have cracked up by now if it wasnt for you. you have helped me grieve for my angel as well as just admit to how i feel and stop hiding it from everyone cos at the end of the day its normal to feel like i did!
blah im getting all emotional now
love you girls

[ChattyAshley]

Aaww Sarah, we're here for you girl!!