hello and

im so sorry to hear of your loss. i know many women "appear" to have it easy but believe me, spend time on here and ttc and you will realise that actually a lot more have difficulty.
the girls here are wonderful and im sure you will see that for yourself soon enough.
opks are not actually that reliable unless you are doing them more than once a day as the surge can be too short for you to detect it.
i became obsessed with getting pregnant after my m/c but have now finally found it in me to put it on hold for a couple of cycles so i can concentrate on what i have and grieving for my angel. thats all thanks to these girls and i pray they can do the same for you.
x
eta.. do you have a link to your chart? there is always someone willing to stalk and see if they can make sense of it!