Hi ladies!!

I don't think I've ever introduced myself here! I've been hanging around for a month or so. I am 23, My DH and I just celebrated 5 years of marriage and we have a beautiful daughter who is almost 2! I had a cyst on my right ovary that burst on Christmas day last year and I had to have emergency surgery to clean that up (it was huge and left an amazing mess in my innerds) and I had my appendix removed. They figured they would take that out while they were in there! It was a 2 for 1 deal! haha Anyway, We got pregnant in January and my doctor was excited because that meant things were working right. Well, sorta. It didn't last long, at 5 weeks and a few days I had a miscarriage. We all handled it really well and decided we would try again immediately. It took us a few months and I was getting nervous that maybe things weren't right on the inside! I saw my doctor last week because I was having pain again and worried there might be another cyst. I have an appointment next week for another ultrasound. I think I'm going to reschedule it cause after a few days of feeling weird I took a test today and there was a REALLY faint line. I didn't see it at first (after 30 seconds) and just figure it was too early. Then I waited a little bit longer (about 3 minutes total) and looked back and itwas light but definitely there!!!! I haven't told DH yet. I'm going to take another one first thing tomorrow and it should be darker. I'm a little excited but at the same time not. I just don't want to get my hopes up. I know that this time around I won't tell anybody for a while. The word gets out REALLY quickly with my inlaws and we told them right after we found out about the last one and within a few days EVERYBODY knew. I just don't want to get everybody's hopes up again. I feel really strongly that if I am pregnant again that everything will be fine, I just want to be careful.

Ok, that was really long winded for a first post but I just wanted to jump on in! I hope it's ok that I shared this on the TTC after loss board. I'm not ready to join the PG after loss board. Too soon for that!

Thanks ladies!

[Pitridge]

I'm sorry for your lost and YEAHHHH for the light/faint line, I hope it turns darker tomorrow. We told everybody as soon as I found out and it broke our hearts to have to tell them weeks later that I had a m/c, when this time comes we won't tell that many people.KUP

Thanks!

We got pregnant so easy with our Daughter and so easy with the one we lost so it was scary that it has taken us a little longer.

We knew the risks when we told everybody and we were still happy that we got to spend a little over a week being really excited. It was just a horrible crash at the end!

[Pitridge]

We knew the risks when we told everybody and we were still happy that we got to spend a little over a week being really excited. It was just a horrible crash at the end!
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I know what you mean, for me the worse part was telling people about the m/c. good luck

And byt he way, everyone here is great, they are great support and always willing to answer any silly questions (I have one toom any of those)

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

I'm sorry for your loss. Ya for the faint line. I hope when you test tomorrow it is darker. Please let us know!

[dee68]

I am so sorry for your loss ~HUGS~


I am looking forward to seeing a nice dark line you will post !!!
and when you are ready to join us at Pregnancy after a Loss...please do hon....we all know how scary it is, and we understand!!

[*Bobbie*]

Hi and

I am glad you found your way over here.

I can't wait to see that line Get out that camera girl

[Brittney06]

I just wanted to tell you I am sorry for your loss and I am sending lots of DARKER LINE DUST!

Thanks ladies! I feel so welcomed.

I'll be honest... I handled my m/c so well in the beginning that it made it even harder to handle the hurt later. My husband was out of town when it started happening and my sister in law was with me and I made myself keep it together. Luckily my DH got to come home from his trip the day after. Still, I held it all together until about 3 weeks later, the day of my 'should be' OB appointment. I lost it that night. It's amazing how it creeps back up on me when I'm least expecting it.

I'm having the hardest time not going and peeing on the second test that came in the box! haha I was at the store tonight and meant to pick up some digitals but completely forgot! Maybe that's a good sign! hahaha

[madmum_sarah]

welcome and im so sorry for your loss.
for faint line. i pray you get your darker one and its a sticky bean this time.
i had m/c in feb at 4w3days and although tearful was coping well (ok i was good at hiding how much it hurt!) but a week or so later i started falling apart and that carried on until recently when i joined here. now although it still hurts everyday i find it easier to cope with because i have these wonderful girls to talk to (dh is a emotionphobic! ) now i have found the strength to put ttc on hold for a cycle or 3 to get my dh sorted and time to grieve for my angel.
look forward to getting to know you better, we have a few pregnant ones here (seems to be more everyday i come on) but they are part of the "family" so we are not allowing them to leave
xx

[.x~KAT~x.]

good luck on that BFP!!